Lyric discussion by Mila2012 

Cover art for Myth lyrics by Beach House

I don't know what it means. But I wanted to share what it means to me

I lost the love of my life, my soulmate, 5 months ago. He died suddenly and unexpectedly during the night sleeping beside me. He was 26 and we've been together since the start of highschool

To me, this song explains a lot of what I am feeling. I am the type to put on a smiley face for everyone, and deal with my grief in my own privacy, in the home we shared

"Drifting in and out You see the road you're on"

This is what it feels like. I drift in and out of reality, I know it's denial but it's comfortable there. It's easier to think he is just away on business and he'll be home soon. But I drift in and out of that and often I realize the lonely road I am on and future I face

"Help me to name it" I don't know what label to put on myself. I wasn't married, even though we were together for 12 years. I'm not technically a widow. I don't want to be anyway. But I don't know what to name it..

"If you built yourself a myth You’d know just what to give What comes after this Momentary bliss, the consequence Of what you do to me"

This brings me to the loneliness part. I've thought about moving on, meeting someone else, so that I don't have to be lonely anymore, a companion and someone to love me. Then I worry about the guilt, regret. Would it feel like I was cheating on my fiance? So if I build myself a myth, what comes after the momentary bliss? The consequence of what it would do to me?

"Found yourself in a new direction" "Can't keep hanging on To what is dead and gone If you built yourself a myth You'd know just what to give Materialize Or let the ashes fly"

I suppose I can't keep hanging on to what is dead and gone. I have his ashes in our house and have agonized about what I should do. I don't know whether to keep him home with me forever, or let his ashes fly.

Anyway, that's just what the song means to me Mila x

it's pretty sad to read this. you are too young, just move on, something good will happen, let his ashes fly away, start a new life, be happy again, it's no easy but you'll make it ;)

As much as I know akito_on means well, at the end of the day do what you need to do to grieve. I have lost close people to me, and in my experience the grieving process is different for each person. It is too easy to suggest just get over it and move on. When you lose someone close, it shakes up your world forever.

I pray and hope the best for you. I hope through it all you can make your boyfriend proud of the person you will become. Good luck and God bless.

@Mila2012 I felt compelled to reply to this. I really hope since some years have passed since you wrote this that you are doing better and have found some semblance of peace with what has happened. I lost my partner 1 1/2 years ago. We were together for 3 years, so I cannot imagine the pain you must have went through after 12 years with him.

The first year was incredibly tough for me. And though it's still hard and I miss him everyday, I'm doing so much better than I was. Anyway, I thought I'd reach out and if you ever need...