feel that this speaks to the sexual abuse of children. I've read many opinions and they are all very thought provoking but this is the one that makes the most sense to me.
Here's my lyrical interpretation:
"I had a way then losing it all on my own
I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown"
I think speaks to how her childhood was taken from her and how her heart was hardened.
"And I'm not sleeping now the dark is too hard to beat
And I'm not keeping now the strength I need to push me"
I think here she talks about how darkness is the enemy because that's when the abuse takes place and she's losing hope.
"You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine It when I'm alone"
I think this talks about the abuse specifically. Her door opens and the light shines in. She turns to stone because she knows what's coming. And it only happens when she's alone.
"And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone"
Obviously is saying she's trying to be strong until the abuser leaves...or she does.
"'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home"
I think she's talking about how the memories are haunting her and she doesn't want to deal with the emotional damage the abuse caused.
"Noises, I play within my head"
This is what I imagine a child does when something bad is happening (to them, around them, etc.) and they don't want to think about it.
"Touch my own skin and hope that I'm still breathing"
Maybe this means she's trying to comfort herself after the abuse has happened.
"And I think back to when my brother and my sister slept
in an unlocked place the only time I feel safe"
I think this speaks to when her siblings slept in a room close by hers but had no idea what was going on and the locking of a door was significant of her abuser.
This is obviously a very dark interpretation but I think it's relevant. I do love this song. I think Ellie is extraordinarily talented.
coolcast has it. Pretty good, I would make this comment: I think " I had a way then, losing it all on my own." Is a girl that had a good life, but ran away. "I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown" she was a willful child and thought that she could find a less repressive way to live. Only to pay this price.
coolcast has it. Pretty good, I would make this comment: I think " I had a way then, losing it all on my own." Is a girl that had a good life, but ran away. "I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown" she was a willful child and thought that she could find a less repressive way to live. Only to pay this price.
Such a sad song, such a sad reality for too many children. I wish the stations playing and profiting off of this song would pay it forward.
Such a sad song, such a sad reality for too many children. I wish the stations playing and profiting off of this song would pay it forward.
coolcast has it. Pretty good, I would make this comment: I think " I had a way then, losing it all on my own." Is a girl that had a good life, but ran away. "I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown" she was a willful child and thought that she could find a less repressive way to live. Only to pay this price.
coolcast has it. Pretty good, I would make this comment: I think " I had a way then, losing it all on my own." Is a girl that had a good life, but ran away. "I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown" she was a willful child and thought that she could find a less repressive way to live. Only to pay this price.
Such a sad song, such a sad reality for too many children. I wish the stations playing and profiting off of this song would pay it forward.
Such a sad song, such a sad reality for too many children. I wish the stations playing and profiting off of this song would pay it forward.
Edit: ...
Edit: "turn to stone". Is known as the 'fight, flight, or freeze' response. Freeze is more common that most people know. Hope that you never experience it.
God bless.
When I read these lyrics for the first time, I got a very similar interpretation, which is why I tried to find a confirmation, and how I got to this site. As for "Touch my own skin and hope that I'm still breathing" she's probably checking for any physical damage such as bruises. "My brother and my sister slept In another place" I agree with the siblings thing, like she knew that they were safe and they didn't have to go through this.
When I read these lyrics for the first time, I got a very similar interpretation, which is why I tried to find a confirmation, and how I got to this site. As for "Touch my own skin and hope that I'm still breathing" she's probably checking for any physical damage such as bruises. "My brother and my sister slept In another place" I agree with the siblings thing, like she knew that they were safe and they didn't have to go through this.
It is a darker interpretation then just saying 'oh she's afraid of the...
It is a darker interpretation then just saying 'oh she's afraid of the dark' but it's the only one that really makes any since to me.
To go along with this interpretation, perhaps the "I used to have a way then, losing it all on my own," is referring to virginity. She would have been able to lose her virginity on her own, but it was taken from her when she was abused.
To go along with this interpretation, perhaps the "I used to have a way then, losing it all on my own," is referring to virginity. She would have been able to lose her virginity on her own, but it was taken from her when she was abused.
@coolcast I'm late to the game, but definitely this, given the imagery laid out. The only thing I think I would assert which no others have mentioned (which makes me afraid I'm wrong) is that the queen being overthrown is her mother, whose spirit and strength the song is about. Either way I believe coolcast and samtwlo have great interpretations of the lyrics.
@coolcast I'm late to the game, but definitely this, given the imagery laid out. The only thing I think I would assert which no others have mentioned (which makes me afraid I'm wrong) is that the queen being overthrown is her mother, whose spirit and strength the song is about. Either way I believe coolcast and samtwlo have great interpretations of the lyrics.
@coolcast Here it is 2019 and this song was the last thing on my mind, but low and behold Ellie Goulding was singing on GMA today and this song in the promo brought my thoughts and feelings about this song all back to me like I just heard it last week. Yes! when this song came out, Child Sexual Assualt was exactly what came to my mind when I stopped bouncing to the beat and actually listened to the words!! It bothered me so that had a informal lyric meaning mtg w/ my son a friends as how to pay...
@coolcast Here it is 2019 and this song was the last thing on my mind, but low and behold Ellie Goulding was singing on GMA today and this song in the promo brought my thoughts and feelings about this song all back to me like I just heard it last week. Yes! when this song came out, Child Sexual Assualt was exactly what came to my mind when I stopped bouncing to the beat and actually listened to the words!! It bothered me so that had a informal lyric meaning mtg w/ my son a friends as how to pay attention to what is really being said. Thank you for posting this Coolcast. Hearing it again today prompted me to finally see what others said about this very unique and troubling piece (the hurt of the subject not the song)
@coolcast I been recollecting lately about passed abuse and have been listening to this and i believer his is exactly what the song is about. This meaning makes sense and gave me closure when I read it
@coolcast I been recollecting lately about passed abuse and have been listening to this and i believer his is exactly what the song is about. This meaning makes sense and gave me closure when I read it
@coolcast I been recollecting lately about passed abuse and have been listening to this and i believer his is exactly what the song is about. This meaning makes sense and gave me closure when I read it
@coolcast I been recollecting lately about passed abuse and have been listening to this and i believer his is exactly what the song is about. This meaning makes sense and gave me closure when I read it
feel that this speaks to the sexual abuse of children. I've read many opinions and they are all very thought provoking but this is the one that makes the most sense to me.
Here's my lyrical interpretation:
"I had a way then losing it all on my own I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown"
I think speaks to how her childhood was taken from her and how her heart was hardened.
"And I'm not sleeping now the dark is too hard to beat And I'm not keeping now the strength I need to push me"
I think here she talks about how darkness is the enemy because that's when the abuse takes place and she's losing hope.
"You show the lights that stop me turn to stone You shine It when I'm alone"
I think this talks about the abuse specifically. Her door opens and the light shines in. She turns to stone because she knows what's coming. And it only happens when she's alone.
"And so I tell myself that I'll be strong And dreaming when they're gone"
Obviously is saying she's trying to be strong until the abuser leaves...or she does.
"'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home"
I think she's talking about how the memories are haunting her and she doesn't want to deal with the emotional damage the abuse caused.
"Noises, I play within my head"
This is what I imagine a child does when something bad is happening (to them, around them, etc.) and they don't want to think about it.
"Touch my own skin and hope that I'm still breathing"
Maybe this means she's trying to comfort herself after the abuse has happened.
"And I think back to when my brother and my sister slept in an unlocked place the only time I feel safe"
I think this speaks to when her siblings slept in a room close by hers but had no idea what was going on and the locking of a door was significant of her abuser.
This is obviously a very dark interpretation but I think it's relevant. I do love this song. I think Ellie is extraordinarily talented.
I can see where this interpretation comes from, and it is actually very thought provoking.
I can see where this interpretation comes from, and it is actually very thought provoking.
coolcast has it. Pretty good, I would make this comment: I think " I had a way then, losing it all on my own." Is a girl that had a good life, but ran away. "I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown" she was a willful child and thought that she could find a less repressive way to live. Only to pay this price.
coolcast has it. Pretty good, I would make this comment: I think " I had a way then, losing it all on my own." Is a girl that had a good life, but ran away. "I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown" she was a willful child and thought that she could find a less repressive way to live. Only to pay this price.
Such a sad song, such a sad reality for too many children. I wish the stations playing and profiting off of this song would pay it forward.
Such a sad song, such a sad reality for too many children. I wish the stations playing and profiting off of this song would pay it forward.
God bless.
God bless.
coolcast has it. Pretty good, I would make this comment: I think " I had a way then, losing it all on my own." Is a girl that had a good life, but ran away. "I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown" she was a willful child and thought that she could find a less repressive way to live. Only to pay this price.
coolcast has it. Pretty good, I would make this comment: I think " I had a way then, losing it all on my own." Is a girl that had a good life, but ran away. "I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown" she was a willful child and thought that she could find a less repressive way to live. Only to pay this price.
Such a sad song, such a sad reality for too many children. I wish the stations playing and profiting off of this song would pay it forward.
Such a sad song, such a sad reality for too many children. I wish the stations playing and profiting off of this song would pay it forward.
Edit: ...
Edit: "turn to stone". Is known as the 'fight, flight, or freeze' response. Freeze is more common that most people know. Hope that you never experience it. God bless.
When I read these lyrics for the first time, I got a very similar interpretation, which is why I tried to find a confirmation, and how I got to this site. As for "Touch my own skin and hope that I'm still breathing" she's probably checking for any physical damage such as bruises. "My brother and my sister slept In another place" I agree with the siblings thing, like she knew that they were safe and they didn't have to go through this.
When I read these lyrics for the first time, I got a very similar interpretation, which is why I tried to find a confirmation, and how I got to this site. As for "Touch my own skin and hope that I'm still breathing" she's probably checking for any physical damage such as bruises. "My brother and my sister slept In another place" I agree with the siblings thing, like she knew that they were safe and they didn't have to go through this.
It is a darker interpretation then just saying 'oh she's afraid of the...
It is a darker interpretation then just saying 'oh she's afraid of the dark' but it's the only one that really makes any since to me.
To go along with this interpretation, perhaps the "I used to have a way then, losing it all on my own," is referring to virginity. She would have been able to lose her virginity on her own, but it was taken from her when she was abused.
To go along with this interpretation, perhaps the "I used to have a way then, losing it all on my own," is referring to virginity. She would have been able to lose her virginity on her own, but it was taken from her when she was abused.
@coolcast I'm late to the game, but definitely this, given the imagery laid out. The only thing I think I would assert which no others have mentioned (which makes me afraid I'm wrong) is that the queen being overthrown is her mother, whose spirit and strength the song is about. Either way I believe coolcast and samtwlo have great interpretations of the lyrics.
@coolcast I'm late to the game, but definitely this, given the imagery laid out. The only thing I think I would assert which no others have mentioned (which makes me afraid I'm wrong) is that the queen being overthrown is her mother, whose spirit and strength the song is about. Either way I believe coolcast and samtwlo have great interpretations of the lyrics.
@coolcast Here it is 2019 and this song was the last thing on my mind, but low and behold Ellie Goulding was singing on GMA today and this song in the promo brought my thoughts and feelings about this song all back to me like I just heard it last week. Yes! when this song came out, Child Sexual Assualt was exactly what came to my mind when I stopped bouncing to the beat and actually listened to the words!! It bothered me so that had a informal lyric meaning mtg w/ my son a friends as how to pay...
@coolcast Here it is 2019 and this song was the last thing on my mind, but low and behold Ellie Goulding was singing on GMA today and this song in the promo brought my thoughts and feelings about this song all back to me like I just heard it last week. Yes! when this song came out, Child Sexual Assualt was exactly what came to my mind when I stopped bouncing to the beat and actually listened to the words!! It bothered me so that had a informal lyric meaning mtg w/ my son a friends as how to pay attention to what is really being said. Thank you for posting this Coolcast. Hearing it again today prompted me to finally see what others said about this very unique and troubling piece (the hurt of the subject not the song)
@coolcast I been recollecting lately about passed abuse and have been listening to this and i believer his is exactly what the song is about. This meaning makes sense and gave me closure when I read it
@coolcast I been recollecting lately about passed abuse and have been listening to this and i believer his is exactly what the song is about. This meaning makes sense and gave me closure when I read it
@coolcast I been recollecting lately about passed abuse and have been listening to this and i believer his is exactly what the song is about. This meaning makes sense and gave me closure when I read it
@coolcast I been recollecting lately about passed abuse and have been listening to this and i believer his is exactly what the song is about. This meaning makes sense and gave me closure when I read it