I feel like he's observing, not really interacting too much at parties. Watching everyone do drugs, and trying to fill up their hollow shell. He's smiling at it, kind of like its funny. Not a laughing type of funny, but a sad funny. He's watching people throw themselves away.
"There's something that you think you need
Trying your best to sleep at cocaine speed
So watch as i start to smile"
Here I feel he's saying, You dont really need the drugs but you think you do, so good luck with yourself, have fun screwing yourselves up.
He dies after every party, I personally take this as an introvert sort of thing, like...the events are too wild and crazy and he needs to recover but that my own little idea, Also it could be out of sympathy for the others, all the stress of watching them hurt themselves. Or perhaps its just the fact that parties in general are so emotionally and physically draining
I feel Misalignedstars has the correct point.
I feel like he's observing, not really interacting too much at parties. Watching everyone do drugs, and trying to fill up their hollow shell. He's smiling at it, kind of like its funny. Not a laughing type of funny, but a sad funny. He's watching people throw themselves away. "There's something that you think you need Trying your best to sleep at cocaine speed So watch as i start to smile" Here I feel he's saying, You dont really need the drugs but you think you do, so good luck with yourself, have fun screwing yourselves up.
He dies after every party, I personally take this as an introvert sort of thing, like...the events are too wild and crazy and he needs to recover but that my own little idea, Also it could be out of sympathy for the others, all the stress of watching them hurt themselves. Or perhaps its just the fact that parties in general are so emotionally and physically draining