"If I can't crawl inside of you,
I'm laughing with a broken face
I stumble across my self esteem.
But to picture the pleasure is making me want my space."
~ You're wanting to be happy, but that never happens. And the thing is, to even think about it makes you uncomfortable and your low self esteem forces you to be alone.
Understand.......
That God wrapped you like a bow.
But in my head...
There's some shelves that need cleaning,
from basement to ceiling, control.
~People tell you that you're special and God loves you the way you are, but you know that you're not, and that there are many parts of you that need help and therapy. /'you' (as in an someone the artist is singing to) are wonderful; God wrapped YOU like a bow, but in MY head.. there's so much that needs to be fixed and cleaned.
"If what you're seeing is an open book,
that's great 'cuz I'm an open book,
a confused boy."
~ You're an open book and you're confused, so if that's what other people see when they look at you, then great. Because now you don't have to explain yourself.
"I'm an automatic steeple for depressed and
lonely people.
My heart while in it's cage, is used to give and not
receive a thing.
But the only funny thing is that I don't know how to
give myself advice."
~This is pretty self explanatory. You attract depressed and lonely people. Your heart is locked up and always gives but ever receives. Although you're giving all these broken people advice and love, you don't know how to give any to yourself.
"I've got this post traumatic thing.
I've got this tattoo of a ring that lies
around my wedding finger and that's where I want to
state this claim.
"That I've got to learn to live and dream
before I go and get myself in love" "
~Due to trauma, you want to heal and live your life before you're not alone. "I've got to learn to live and dream before I go and get myself in love"
"There's Zoloft, Welbutrin, there's Paxil that's proven,
no side effects.
But the rest left unnamed 'cuz they'd work like a charm on me."
~This line always hits me the hardest. There's all of these drugs: Zoloft, Welbutrin, and Paxil, to name a few, that are 'proven' no side effects. (You can hear the sarcasm in his tone.) But the rest of the anti-depressants out there aren't mentioned to you because they'd work like a charm. It's cruel.
"But when your savings is drying.
you can't stop from crying.
You've got to suck it up.
You're not her buttercupp,
you're not her favorite book."
~You're savings are running out from spending so much money on medication that never works, you can't stop from crying. But you've got to suck it up because aside from your mental health problems, she doesn't love you.
These are the musing of someone with mental illness, particularly including depression. It's so sad and so relatable.
This song.. wow this song. <3
"If I can't crawl inside of you, I'm laughing with a broken face I stumble across my self esteem. But to picture the pleasure is making me want my space."
~ You're wanting to be happy, but that never happens. And the thing is, to even think about it makes you uncomfortable and your low self esteem forces you to be alone.
Understand....... That God wrapped you like a bow. But in my head... There's some shelves that need cleaning, from basement to ceiling, control.
~People tell you that you're special and God loves you the way you are, but you know that you're not, and that there are many parts of you that need help and therapy. /'you' (as in an someone the artist is singing to) are wonderful; God wrapped YOU like a bow, but in MY head.. there's so much that needs to be fixed and cleaned.
"If what you're seeing is an open book, that's great 'cuz I'm an open book, a confused boy."
~ You're an open book and you're confused, so if that's what other people see when they look at you, then great. Because now you don't have to explain yourself.
"I'm an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people. My heart while in it's cage, is used to give and not receive a thing. But the only funny thing is that I don't know how to give myself advice."
~This is pretty self explanatory. You attract depressed and lonely people. Your heart is locked up and always gives but ever receives. Although you're giving all these broken people advice and love, you don't know how to give any to yourself.
"I've got this post traumatic thing. I've got this tattoo of a ring that lies around my wedding finger and that's where I want to state this claim. "That I've got to learn to live and dream before I go and get myself in love" "
~Due to trauma, you want to heal and live your life before you're not alone. "I've got to learn to live and dream before I go and get myself in love"
"There's Zoloft, Welbutrin, there's Paxil that's proven, no side effects. But the rest left unnamed 'cuz they'd work like a charm on me."
~This line always hits me the hardest. There's all of these drugs: Zoloft, Welbutrin, and Paxil, to name a few, that are 'proven' no side effects. (You can hear the sarcasm in his tone.) But the rest of the anti-depressants out there aren't mentioned to you because they'd work like a charm. It's cruel.
"But when your savings is drying. you can't stop from crying. You've got to suck it up. You're not her buttercupp, you're not her favorite book."
~You're savings are running out from spending so much money on medication that never works, you can't stop from crying. But you've got to suck it up because aside from your mental health problems, she doesn't love you.
These are the musing of someone with mental illness, particularly including depression. It's so sad and so relatable.