Just not being able to be Catholic and then realising it's ok. I don't think doctoring clean is supposed to be a good thing, I think it's supposed to be flippant or something how maybe he was punished by a religious person in charge or a family figure. It's against the catholic order, but not against God. He later gets back into his own religion when he felt like it was right for him, but Catholocism wasn't right, it just brought him told and told him no good would come out of life. Just 'good enough'. He's asking God instead of a religious figure for help.
A conscious decision 'believin' in nothin'', leaving the faith before he found his own again elsewhere.
Just not being able to be Catholic and then realising it's ok. I don't think doctoring clean is supposed to be a good thing, I think it's supposed to be flippant or something how maybe he was punished by a religious person in charge or a family figure. It's against the catholic order, but not against God. He later gets back into his own religion when he felt like it was right for him, but Catholocism wasn't right, it just brought him told and told him no good would come out of life. Just 'good enough'. He's asking God instead of a religious figure for help. A conscious decision 'believin' in nothin'', leaving the faith before he found his own again elsewhere.