Idk maybe Im just personalizing these lyrics but I can see a lot of parallels between this song and a break up I went through with this beautiful girl who unfortunatly struggled with self image and in her youth had a eating disorder...
she broke up out of the blue, only later did I realize my being there, even though I was "exactly what she needed", was driving her to relapse.
the first half is what I at first felt like but now I realize the second half of the song really has more to do with her obviously this wasnt easy for her and I wish I had acted differently.
"Everybody wants a reason for everything.
It’s so much easier with someone or something to blame.
I’ve always struggled at the root of the problem.
Has it been absence or my constant lack of defense?"
I harped over why she would leave if only I knew how much harder the experience was for her I would understand
"Sorry. I know I seem angry. I’m not, I…I promise. I just know I did this to me. And I will deal with It accordingly. And I don’t need opinions from those never a part of it. Don’t need them pointing Out my problems, they’re mine. Don’t need reminders I know better than anyone."
but IT was a problem that was around long before she knew me and unfortunately it has survived longer than I did in her life.
I only hope the next man in my position treats her as well as I did, but with more understanding
"I know I should’ve moved on ages ago, been happy already, but it’s never been that easy for Me. Or maybe it was me that made it so hard."
Idk maybe Im just personalizing these lyrics but I can see a lot of parallels between this song and a break up I went through with this beautiful girl who unfortunatly struggled with self image and in her youth had a eating disorder... she broke up out of the blue, only later did I realize my being there, even though I was "exactly what she needed", was driving her to relapse. the first half is what I at first felt like but now I realize the second half of the song really has more to do with her obviously this wasnt easy for her and I wish I had acted differently.
"Everybody wants a reason for everything. It’s so much easier with someone or something to blame. I’ve always struggled at the root of the problem. Has it been absence or my constant lack of defense?"
I harped over why she would leave if only I knew how much harder the experience was for her I would understand "Sorry. I know I seem angry. I’m not, I…I promise. I just know I did this to me. And I will deal with It accordingly. And I don’t need opinions from those never a part of it. Don’t need them pointing Out my problems, they’re mine. Don’t need reminders I know better than anyone."
but IT was a problem that was around long before she knew me and unfortunately it has survived longer than I did in her life.
I only hope the next man in my position treats her as well as I did, but with more understanding
"I know I should’ve moved on ages ago, been happy already, but it’s never been that easy for Me. Or maybe it was me that made it so hard."