Anonymity. I think he craved it but was simultaneously frightened by it. As Martel said, he was a country boy, and the anonymity offered by the boondocks is completely different than that provided by the city. The country can offer shelter from the world, but in the city, it's like the world just doesn't notice you there. It's effectively the same thing, but in the city, the comfort's cold.
Anonymity. I think he craved it but was simultaneously frightened by it. As Martel said, he was a country boy, and the anonymity offered by the boondocks is completely different than that provided by the city. The country can offer shelter from the world, but in the city, it's like the world just doesn't notice you there. It's effectively the same thing, but in the city, the comfort's cold.