This song is not about a loss of a boyfriend/lover, although it was a beautiful touch to the end of the Weeds episode in which Nancy crying as she watches old home movies of herself and her deceased husband. But it's not about the loss of a man. Most obvious clues are "ballerina," "cupcake," and "lace" (which are all girly things) and referring to the lost person as a "she." It is about the mother's regret about an abortion. A clue that it is a baby that dies and not an older child is that she says she'll never feel the weight of her hands inside hers. It says "pull you from me, my body burns." To me that means the doctors take the embryo/fetus out of her body. The "feel you tumbling/crashing down into that empty room" refers to the baby being drawn out of her and into the room at the abortion clinic. And the room spins because she's obviously drugged up and dealing with mixed emotions about what is happening. The lights go out and the music stops symbolizes the baby's death, leaving the mother in darkness. And the mother is torn up with emotions like she wants to change what has already happened, she wishes she could take save the baby but now she can't, and the "want to scream out loud" just shows the desperation she feels inside. The "tell me of the rainbows, the colors that the rain throws" are words to her lost baby, wondering what she is seeing in Heaven. And "she knows when to come only when she's called" to me means being called into Heaven by God, and "I'm slowly coming to" (which the lyrics above are incorrect with "on slowly coming to") means the mother is regaining consciousness from whatever drugs she was given to do the abortion procedure. When I first heard the song I thought it was about a stillborn baby, but then at the end I was convinced it was abortion when she says "so so sorry, just come back for/to me now."
This song is not about a loss of a boyfriend/lover, although it was a beautiful touch to the end of the Weeds episode in which Nancy crying as she watches old home movies of herself and her deceased husband. But it's not about the loss of a man. Most obvious clues are "ballerina," "cupcake," and "lace" (which are all girly things) and referring to the lost person as a "she." It is about the mother's regret about an abortion. A clue that it is a baby that dies and not an older child is that she says she'll never feel the weight of her hands inside hers. It says "pull you from me, my body burns." To me that means the doctors take the embryo/fetus out of her body. The "feel you tumbling/crashing down into that empty room" refers to the baby being drawn out of her and into the room at the abortion clinic. And the room spins because she's obviously drugged up and dealing with mixed emotions about what is happening. The lights go out and the music stops symbolizes the baby's death, leaving the mother in darkness. And the mother is torn up with emotions like she wants to change what has already happened, she wishes she could take save the baby but now she can't, and the "want to scream out loud" just shows the desperation she feels inside. The "tell me of the rainbows, the colors that the rain throws" are words to her lost baby, wondering what she is seeing in Heaven. And "she knows when to come only when she's called" to me means being called into Heaven by God, and "I'm slowly coming to" (which the lyrics above are incorrect with "on slowly coming to") means the mother is regaining consciousness from whatever drugs she was given to do the abortion procedure. When I first heard the song I thought it was about a stillborn baby, but then at the end I was convinced it was abortion when she says "so so sorry, just come back for/to me now."