I believe this is a song about attention, with some suicidal connotations. The protagonist want's to be noticed. As a result, she perform activities such as taking unknown pills, dying her hair and cutting her skin. In regards to the chorus, she has false beliefs since if she were to do the activities mentioned, she wouldn't gain the level of attention she seeks. In the chorus, she acknowledges that "inside I'm still a mess", which leads me to believe she could possibly have mental health problems. The second stanza makes me think that she is losing patience and may possibly become suicidal due to a lack of attention. At the end, it makes me think that she is contemplating suicide. When the protagonist says she pretends she's a queen, this makes me think that at this point, she is finally able to control her life. This is because she is able to make decisions and she doesn't have to conform to what society wants. At this point, I think she is happy since she can finally leave all those negative experiences. "it's almost believable", that quote intrigues me since I think it is about not knowing whether or not she should commit suicide and also, if she has the courage to.
I know that's a very depressing way to look at it but that's how I perceive this song.
I believe this is a song about attention, with some suicidal connotations. The protagonist want's to be noticed. As a result, she perform activities such as taking unknown pills, dying her hair and cutting her skin. In regards to the chorus, she has false beliefs since if she were to do the activities mentioned, she wouldn't gain the level of attention she seeks. In the chorus, she acknowledges that "inside I'm still a mess", which leads me to believe she could possibly have mental health problems. The second stanza makes me think that she is losing patience and may possibly become suicidal due to a lack of attention. At the end, it makes me think that she is contemplating suicide. When the protagonist says she pretends she's a queen, this makes me think that at this point, she is finally able to control her life. This is because she is able to make decisions and she doesn't have to conform to what society wants. At this point, I think she is happy since she can finally leave all those negative experiences. "it's almost believable", that quote intrigues me since I think it is about not knowing whether or not she should commit suicide and also, if she has the courage to.
I know that's a very depressing way to look at it but that's how I perceive this song.