I've mostly felt that this song is about the personal drama around Kurt, from being with Courtney. Before he was with her, he was a very smart, approachable, amicable, self-deprecating stoner type. Once they were together, she turned him on to heroin, she conjured lots of drama, picked many ugly battles with so many parties and pulled Kurt into it. His life was transformed by fame, yes, but she brought a lot of conflict to his life.
Add to it his increasing conflict with his bandmates who wanted equal pay/credit, despite not writing nearly as much material as he was or facing the pressure of being the frontman to field all press as well as maintain the band's image and credibility. Evidently, he was on the brink of disbanding Nirvana in 1993.
I think he was missing feeling the familiar sadness and the comfort zone of the usual loneliness or depression instead of the anger that replaced it.
I've mostly felt that this song is about the personal drama around Kurt, from being with Courtney. Before he was with her, he was a very smart, approachable, amicable, self-deprecating stoner type. Once they were together, she turned him on to heroin, she conjured lots of drama, picked many ugly battles with so many parties and pulled Kurt into it. His life was transformed by fame, yes, but she brought a lot of conflict to his life.
Add to it his increasing conflict with his bandmates who wanted equal pay/credit, despite not writing nearly as much material as he was or facing the pressure of being the frontman to field all press as well as maintain the band's image and credibility. Evidently, he was on the brink of disbanding Nirvana in 1993.
I think he was missing feeling the familiar sadness and the comfort zone of the usual loneliness or depression instead of the anger that replaced it.