Hm. I think the Clayman (=D) is talking about how painful it is for him to look back on the ways in which he has adapted over time. Perhaps the dead ships are a metaphor for the mindsets he has used throughout his life to move through time in this ever-changing world. Maybe he now feels he changed too much, and cannot remember how he used to be during certain times, and it pains him to not be able to return to them.
Hm. I think the Clayman (=D) is talking about how painful it is for him to look back on the ways in which he has adapted over time. Perhaps the dead ships are a metaphor for the mindsets he has used throughout his life to move through time in this ever-changing world. Maybe he now feels he changed too much, and cannot remember how he used to be during certain times, and it pains him to not be able to return to them.