Say Hello To Goodbye

i couldn't have found this song at a better time. This song describes my exact situation with my ex. my boyfriend and i of almost 2 years broke up in august and we've been trying since then to be friends, but its not working. one of the reasons i needed out of the relationship was bc we could never stop fighting. we'd get along for a week and then fight for 2. and being friends, i thought would help and it just got worse. recently he told me he was still in love with me and couldn't be friends anymore bc of it, but then changed his mind like ten min later and told me that he did want to be friends bc he'd rather be friends than nothing. but i told him that i couldn't take the "hot-cold-up-and flipping down roller coaster" crap anymore and that i thought that if it wasn't going to be his goodbye anymore, then maybe it should be mine bc now i couldn't keep doing this. I'm still trying to decide if Goodbye is really whats be for me. He had a major part in my heart for so long, and at one point I thought we were going to end up together, but things changed, we changed....and here I am. I don't know if I should try to salvage what i can of our friendship and keep trying, or if i should just accept what is and let go and move on. I am over him. I know i am. the problem is that he's not and I care too much about him. i purposely either dnt do things, or dnt tell him things, bc i dnt want to hurt him anymore than he is. I've talked to my friends, my mom, my cousin, and God-and still can't figure out what i want. I know the answer lies within myself...its just really hard to dig it out and find it. .....what to do? I don't expect an answer-just needed to vent.