My interpretation is that this is about a relationship. One that is damaged by mental illness, however, I believe the illness is something more along the lines of bipolar disorder. This is something I have some experience with, so I may call upon my own life to further my point.
"Sick of this mind and the games it plays
mental enemy enemy enemy want to push me back again
here they come running wanting me up on that
tree, crucified
(wait a minute)"
People with mental illnesses feel as if their minds are their enemies, and it can be a constant fight between what they perceive as "themselves" vs. the disease.
"Whatever words they say (you said it)
whomever they betray (you did it)
whenever they're awake it makes me die"
This sounds exactly like bipolar to me. When I am in a depressive or even a manic state, and then I snap out of it, it feels like I am looking back at a different person speaking. But no, it was me, and I have to live with the damage the disease has done.
"There's so much on my mind, we're given so little time
there's no way to hold on as it passes by
so lead me into denial, help me forget for awhile"
Here, Klayton is singing to a lover or girlfriend. Someone who was there with him throughout his mood swings, and seen both the good and the bad in him. Has had to deal with the "voice" as well as him. And he is begging her to just be with him, and hold the negative voice off for a while. He is unable to hold onto his own personality when the depression kicks in, so he wants to make the most of the time they have together.
"Stay with me, please don't go
Don't want to be alone
stay with me, please"
Self-explanatory. But people with mental illness are far more dependent than "normal" people. He doesn't want to be alone with the voices, when she is one of the only good things in his life. He needs her around.
"I don't have much else to say (unlikely)
I'd rather you go away (unlikely)
I don't need something from you (unlikely)"
The "voice" is speaking to her in this stanza. It's not true, and he even admits this by saying "unlikely" but for now he has no control over what he is saying. He pushes her away, then clings and begs her to stay.
Eventually, she can't handle the added stress anymore, and she leaves. He is left alone, still begging her to stay, unable to function on his own.
This is exactly what I'm going through now with my ex. So I either just twisted this song to fit my life or I discovered a song that fit my life. xD EITHER WAY. The thesis of this whole post has to be "Celldweller fuckin' rocks". c:
this is the best interpretation i have seen, in my opinion at least. Though for the mental illness i see drug addiction. Most of his songs speak of that to me. and if you listen to the cd all the way through its like his trials and pains as he pushes away those he loves, and inner pain from hating what he has become and being unable to change the addiction. Lines like "Whatever words they say (you said it)
whomever they betray (you did it)
whenever they're awake it makes me die" I think its...
this is the best interpretation i have seen, in my opinion at least. Though for the mental illness i see drug addiction. Most of his songs speak of that to me. and if you listen to the cd all the way through its like his trials and pains as he pushes away those he loves, and inner pain from hating what he has become and being unable to change the addiction. Lines like "Whatever words they say (you said it)
whomever they betray (you did it)
whenever they're awake it makes me die" I think its talking about the lies and deciet that seeps in as the drug takes over and relationships are ruined more and more, and how when high he feels awake (good) but it is slowly killing him. and that the voices switch from a lover pushed away by his habbit, unable to handle stress, and a voice of his dark passenger (addiction) coercing him into the frozen hell of his mind. his cell, dwelling alone in his mind since others were pushed away
My interpretation is that this is about a relationship. One that is damaged by mental illness, however, I believe the illness is something more along the lines of bipolar disorder. This is something I have some experience with, so I may call upon my own life to further my point.
"Sick of this mind and the games it plays mental enemy enemy enemy want to push me back again here they come running wanting me up on that tree, crucified (wait a minute)"
People with mental illnesses feel as if their minds are their enemies, and it can be a constant fight between what they perceive as "themselves" vs. the disease.
"Whatever words they say (you said it) whomever they betray (you did it) whenever they're awake it makes me die"
This sounds exactly like bipolar to me. When I am in a depressive or even a manic state, and then I snap out of it, it feels like I am looking back at a different person speaking. But no, it was me, and I have to live with the damage the disease has done.
"There's so much on my mind, we're given so little time there's no way to hold on as it passes by so lead me into denial, help me forget for awhile"
Here, Klayton is singing to a lover or girlfriend. Someone who was there with him throughout his mood swings, and seen both the good and the bad in him. Has had to deal with the "voice" as well as him. And he is begging her to just be with him, and hold the negative voice off for a while. He is unable to hold onto his own personality when the depression kicks in, so he wants to make the most of the time they have together.
"Stay with me, please don't go Don't want to be alone stay with me, please"
Self-explanatory. But people with mental illness are far more dependent than "normal" people. He doesn't want to be alone with the voices, when she is one of the only good things in his life. He needs her around.
"I don't have much else to say (unlikely) I'd rather you go away (unlikely) I don't need something from you (unlikely)"
The "voice" is speaking to her in this stanza. It's not true, and he even admits this by saying "unlikely" but for now he has no control over what he is saying. He pushes her away, then clings and begs her to stay.
Eventually, she can't handle the added stress anymore, and she leaves. He is left alone, still begging her to stay, unable to function on his own.
This is exactly what I'm going through now with my ex. So I either just twisted this song to fit my life or I discovered a song that fit my life. xD EITHER WAY. The thesis of this whole post has to be "Celldweller fuckin' rocks". c:
Call up your brown-eyed ex and explain. I'm sure she'll happily rekindle your long-term relationship. Good luck to you.
Call up your brown-eyed ex and explain. I'm sure she'll happily rekindle your long-term relationship. Good luck to you.
this is the best interpretation i have seen, in my opinion at least. Though for the mental illness i see drug addiction. Most of his songs speak of that to me. and if you listen to the cd all the way through its like his trials and pains as he pushes away those he loves, and inner pain from hating what he has become and being unable to change the addiction. Lines like "Whatever words they say (you said it) whomever they betray (you did it) whenever they're awake it makes me die" I think its...
this is the best interpretation i have seen, in my opinion at least. Though for the mental illness i see drug addiction. Most of his songs speak of that to me. and if you listen to the cd all the way through its like his trials and pains as he pushes away those he loves, and inner pain from hating what he has become and being unable to change the addiction. Lines like "Whatever words they say (you said it) whomever they betray (you did it) whenever they're awake it makes me die" I think its talking about the lies and deciet that seeps in as the drug takes over and relationships are ruined more and more, and how when high he feels awake (good) but it is slowly killing him. and that the voices switch from a lover pushed away by his habbit, unable to handle stress, and a voice of his dark passenger (addiction) coercing him into the frozen hell of his mind. his cell, dwelling alone in his mind since others were pushed away