how shall i to heaven aspire? Lyrics

Lyric discussion by shinmoo 

Cover art for how shall i to heaven aspire? lyrics by Rock Plaza Central

I've always heard the line as "steeled by years of my indecision," which I think makes more sense in context.

As in:

"tr.v. steeled, steel·ing, steels

  1. To cover, plate, edge, or point with steel. 2. To make hard, strong, or obdurate; strengthen: He steeled himself for disappointment." http://www.thefreedictionary.com/steel