Plus being so set in something, and then being abruptly woken up and having that hope dashed and not knowing the direction/purpose of life spiritually or if there is any direction at all. I already struggled with self image, but not knowing if there is a God or that I'm loved unconditionally for me- my deepest ugliness- no matter what, is heart wrenching and makes me feel even more worthless. At least I could cling to that, that even if I don't love myself- God does.
Plus being so set in something, and then being abruptly woken up and having that hope dashed and not knowing the direction/purpose of life spiritually or if there is any direction at all. I already struggled with self image, but not knowing if there is a God or that I'm loved unconditionally for me- my deepest ugliness- no matter what, is heart wrenching and makes me feel even more worthless. At least I could cling to that, that even if I don't love myself- God does.