I think the song is about her struggling with her identity. She doesn't understand why nothing she does to make an impression works. In the first part she even tries to abuse herself in order to attract attention - but it does not work. In the second part she laments about her failure and says "I try everything to make them see me" - a false assertion because her mind is set to be someone else, someone acceptable by the society: "Every day I try to look my best even though inside I'm such a mess".
I believe the song explores and explains the simple but deep concern of a troubled soul who cannot escape the conscience of "others". The whole song is centered on "others", "they", to "see me". Of course in the end the soul returns to the single secure place: loneliness, where "they" exist no more. But still, the mind requests their acceptance - and so loneliness becomes hell.
The bridge is painful but I think a common experience: she cannot beat others into accepting her and so she creates her own dream world where she is the main actor - the queen. "It's almost believable" is a shattering verse: that "almost believable" stays in the way. The dreams cannot be "completely believable" and she knows that. She cannot find release even in dreams. So the struggle continues.
I think the song is about her struggling with her identity. She doesn't understand why nothing she does to make an impression works. In the first part she even tries to abuse herself in order to attract attention - but it does not work. In the second part she laments about her failure and says "I try everything to make them see me" - a false assertion because her mind is set to be someone else, someone acceptable by the society: "Every day I try to look my best even though inside I'm such a mess".
I believe the song explores and explains the simple but deep concern of a troubled soul who cannot escape the conscience of "others". The whole song is centered on "others", "they", to "see me". Of course in the end the soul returns to the single secure place: loneliness, where "they" exist no more. But still, the mind requests their acceptance - and so loneliness becomes hell.
The bridge is painful but I think a common experience: she cannot beat others into accepting her and so she creates her own dream world where she is the main actor - the queen. "It's almost believable" is a shattering verse: that "almost believable" stays in the way. The dreams cannot be "completely believable" and she knows that. She cannot find release even in dreams. So the struggle continues.