this is the beth orton song that means more to me than any other of hers. i listened to this song over and over as my last relationship was ending. i think some of the lyrics above are a little off so below i've changed them to read how i hear them.
Right now
It feels like forever can't wait
Right now
It looks like tomorrow's too late
To meet those expectations
Ones that have never unknown
...for me this means when you've tried so hard to make things work, and you've both had so much hope, and you get to the point where it almost doesn't matter if everything magically is fixed. there's already been too much damage. it's irreparable.
Right now
It's hard not to fall out of place
You make me wrong
Have I fallen from grace
What you do for yourself
You expect for someone else
...when i made the decision to end my last relationship it was the most difficult decision i had ever made in my life. but i knew it had to be done. to save myself. it took so much strength to not falter and fall back into it because i loved him so much. but i would have doubts that i was making the wrong decision and that i was throwing away the one person i was meant to be with. and the last two lines, what they mean to me is that i just wished he respected and loved himself the way i respected and loved my self. but he didn't.
But I had heard that love is a verb
...this is so clear to me. we told each other we loved each other constantly, all day, every day. but his actions spoke otherwise.
Right now
I seem quite cold hearted
But I did my grieving
Before we parted
The ground where we lay
And hoped in my heart you could stay
...when i told him to leave he actually asked me, "how can you be so cold?". but it had been building for a while. i knew it was over before it officially was. and i came to terms with it (somewhat) by the end. i did give him an ultimatum. to stop drinking or leave. and i wanted more than anything for him to choose me. but he didn't.
Right now
It's hard not to fall out of place
If I'm wrong
Have i fallen from grace
What I do to myself
I expect of someone else
...again, i doubted and second guessed myself so much. was i throwing away the best thing that ever happened to me? i needed to be with someone who had at least some semblance of the respect i had for myself, for their own self.
But I had heard that love is a verb
Right now
It feels like tomorrow can't wait
Right now
It looks like forever's too late
To meet our expectations
Ones that were never unknown
...we always talked about what we wanted and what we hoped for. and we couldn't make it happen. and by the time we figured out how much we had screwed up, it was too late.
this is the beth orton song that means more to me than any other of hers. i listened to this song over and over as my last relationship was ending. i think some of the lyrics above are a little off so below i've changed them to read how i hear them.
Right now It feels like forever can't wait Right now It looks like tomorrow's too late To meet those expectations Ones that have never unknown
...for me this means when you've tried so hard to make things work, and you've both had so much hope, and you get to the point where it almost doesn't matter if everything magically is fixed. there's already been too much damage. it's irreparable.
Right now It's hard not to fall out of place You make me wrong Have I fallen from grace What you do for yourself You expect for someone else
...when i made the decision to end my last relationship it was the most difficult decision i had ever made in my life. but i knew it had to be done. to save myself. it took so much strength to not falter and fall back into it because i loved him so much. but i would have doubts that i was making the wrong decision and that i was throwing away the one person i was meant to be with. and the last two lines, what they mean to me is that i just wished he respected and loved himself the way i respected and loved my self. but he didn't.
But I had heard that love is a verb
...this is so clear to me. we told each other we loved each other constantly, all day, every day. but his actions spoke otherwise.
Right now I seem quite cold hearted But I did my grieving Before we parted The ground where we lay And hoped in my heart you could stay
...when i told him to leave he actually asked me, "how can you be so cold?". but it had been building for a while. i knew it was over before it officially was. and i came to terms with it (somewhat) by the end. i did give him an ultimatum. to stop drinking or leave. and i wanted more than anything for him to choose me. but he didn't.
Right now It's hard not to fall out of place If I'm wrong Have i fallen from grace What I do to myself I expect of someone else
...again, i doubted and second guessed myself so much. was i throwing away the best thing that ever happened to me? i needed to be with someone who had at least some semblance of the respect i had for myself, for their own self.
But I had heard that love is a verb
Right now It feels like tomorrow can't wait Right now It looks like forever's too late To meet our expectations Ones that were never unknown
...we always talked about what we wanted and what we hoped for. and we couldn't make it happen. and by the time we figured out how much we had screwed up, it was too late.
thank you for the reply :)
thank you for the reply :)