I think the song is about a woman who fell in love and had her heart broken. She is still in love with him and the pain of thinking about him is her poison. When she says,
"I breathe you in again, just to feel you..
underneath my skin, holding onto..
the sweet escape, is always laced with a
familiar taste of poison.." I believe she's saying that she remembers the love and him so she can feel the love and hope she has when she's with him. The sweet escape could be referring to her memories, and remembering those memories always brings back the hurt of losing him.
In this part,
"I tell myself
that you're are no good for me
I wish you well
but desire never leaves
I could fight this to the end
But maybe I don't wanna win" She's trying to tell herself that the guy isn't the one for her, that he's not good for her. She wants him to be happy, but the desire and love she feels for him never leaves. She could fight her love and desire for him until she dies, but she doesn't want to. She just want to let herself keep feeling that love, which comes up in this part,
"I don't wanna be saved, i don't wanna be sober
I want you on my mind, in my dreams,
behind these eyes that I wanna wake up,
no not this time." She doesn't want to forget him. She wants to keep remembering him, even with all the pain he's causing her. It's worth it to her to keep remembering him and she wants to keep the memories.
I think the song is about a woman who fell in love and had her heart broken. She is still in love with him and the pain of thinking about him is her poison. When she says, "I breathe you in again, just to feel you.. underneath my skin, holding onto.. the sweet escape, is always laced with a familiar taste of poison.." I believe she's saying that she remembers the love and him so she can feel the love and hope she has when she's with him. The sweet escape could be referring to her memories, and remembering those memories always brings back the hurt of losing him. In this part, "I tell myself that you're are no good for me I wish you well but desire never leaves I could fight this to the end But maybe I don't wanna win" She's trying to tell herself that the guy isn't the one for her, that he's not good for her. She wants him to be happy, but the desire and love she feels for him never leaves. She could fight her love and desire for him until she dies, but she doesn't want to. She just want to let herself keep feeling that love, which comes up in this part, "I don't wanna be saved, i don't wanna be sober I want you on my mind, in my dreams, behind these eyes that I wanna wake up, no not this time." She doesn't want to forget him. She wants to keep remembering him, even with all the pain he's causing her. It's worth it to her to keep remembering him and she wants to keep the memories.