I think it's about being on something that you're using for self medication and wishing you could not care without being messed up. "If I could find a way to see this straight I'd run away to some fortune that I should have found by now" You'd have some form of fortune if you didn't have shitty problems preventing you. "So I run to the things they said could restore me restore life the way it should be" Using some form of medication to make yourself feel normal, the way life should be. Idk, I think it, like any song, can be interpreted however you want to see it.
I think it's about being on something that you're using for self medication and wishing you could not care without being messed up. "If I could find a way to see this straight I'd run away to some fortune that I should have found by now" You'd have some form of fortune if you didn't have shitty problems preventing you. "So I run to the things they said could restore me restore life the way it should be" Using some form of medication to make yourself feel normal, the way life should be. Idk, I think it, like any song, can be interpreted however you want to see it.