I take it as he is speaking to an ex with mental problems panic and anxiety attacks and such where he used to be the only thing that could calm her down but now she is gone why would he Chase after her so she could bring him back due to her level the feeling that he betrayed her in his.own right so now she is gone when he thinks of her he has the same issues she had with panic he follows her advice which brings him down to his knees he used to be the sober strong one not he is in out of life due to grief of a lost lover she got away because he pushed her there now she is gone forever he hates himself for it
I take it as he is speaking to an ex with mental problems panic and anxiety attacks and such where he used to be the only thing that could calm her down but now she is gone why would he Chase after her so she could bring him back due to her level the feeling that he betrayed her in his.own right so now she is gone when he thinks of her he has the same issues she had with panic he follows her advice which brings him down to his knees he used to be the sober strong one not he is in out of life due to grief of a lost lover she got away because he pushed her there now she is gone forever he hates himself for it