we're in-between, on the fence
non-descript antagonists
i'm in-between, on the fence
non-descript antagonist!
[They are neither dead or alive, and it's because that's how they feel. One side of them feels they should be dead because that's what the parents wanted, but the other side of them wants to be alive because they were already born, and they are, in fact, alive. They're antagonists, meaning..their existence, whether they feel it should be or not, pisses off their parents. They're hanging on the fence because they're not sure whether they should go one way or the other completely, to be dead or alive...they're just stuck in between.]
i'll split you open
& climb inside
lose myself
eaten alive
[Basically, she wants to climb back inside the womb. The eaten alive part, I'm not sure of. It could go either way. She eats her mother alive, or the mother's hatred for her eats her alive. Either way, she gets lost in the back that's inside of her mother.]
from seraphim!
to nephilim!
to exodus!
[These children go from being angels, to falling from the heavens, to being led out. We think of our children as little angels, but because these children weren't wanted, they 'fell short' from being angels, and eventually were 'led out' or should I say 'cast out' by their parents.]
she's picking ghostflowers
from her soul
she's clipping the wings
of fallen angels!
she's picking ghostflowers
from her soul
she's tonguing splinters
of broken halos!
[She's picking ghostflowers from her soul-I can't tell if this is the mother or the child. It could be the mother saying that she had a flower inside of her, a child, but now it's gone...it's dead. Or it could be the child saying-I was supposed to be this beautiful creature, but there's nothing in me worth wanting, all that should have been in me is dead, my parents killed it. I honestly think it's the child saying that she's picking the dead memories form her soul because she wants to feel alive, but those memories are making her feel dead inside.]
from gelatin
to specimen
to emptiness
[They are talking about the baby here, not the mother. The mother isn't even in this equation. The baby goes from gelatin, to specimen, to emptiness. Meaning, she went from being an embryo, to being a newborn, to being a child whose parents made her feel empty.
I WILL BE AVENGED.
[She will avenge her death, the death of herself. She didn't actually die, her parents made her feel dead inside.]
we are the 1000 children of death
[You don't have to actually be dead to feel dead. This is basically talking about all of the 'unwanted' children who had parents that treated them as if their existence meant nothing, as if they were a mistake.]
Or
from gelatin
to specimen
to emptiness
could mean that she goes from being the unfertilized egg ( gelatin)
to being an embryo ( specimen)
then to being "aborted" (emptiness) which was supposed to happen but it didn't so that's how she is describing the original plan that either failed or got complicated. Maybe?
Or
from gelatin
to specimen
to emptiness
could mean that she goes from being the unfertilized egg ( gelatin)
to being an embryo ( specimen)
then to being "aborted" (emptiness) which was supposed to happen but it didn't so that's how she is describing the original plan that either failed or got complicated. Maybe?
we're in-between, on the fence non-descript antagonists
i'm in-between, on the fence non-descript antagonist!
[They are neither dead or alive, and it's because that's how they feel. One side of them feels they should be dead because that's what the parents wanted, but the other side of them wants to be alive because they were already born, and they are, in fact, alive. They're antagonists, meaning..their existence, whether they feel it should be or not, pisses off their parents. They're hanging on the fence because they're not sure whether they should go one way or the other completely, to be dead or alive...they're just stuck in between.]
i'll split you open & climb inside lose myself eaten alive
[Basically, she wants to climb back inside the womb. The eaten alive part, I'm not sure of. It could go either way. She eats her mother alive, or the mother's hatred for her eats her alive. Either way, she gets lost in the back that's inside of her mother.]
from seraphim! to nephilim! to exodus!
[These children go from being angels, to falling from the heavens, to being led out. We think of our children as little angels, but because these children weren't wanted, they 'fell short' from being angels, and eventually were 'led out' or should I say 'cast out' by their parents.]
she's picking ghostflowers from her soul
she's clipping the wings of fallen angels!
she's picking ghostflowers from her soul
she's tonguing splinters of broken halos!
[She's picking ghostflowers from her soul-I can't tell if this is the mother or the child. It could be the mother saying that she had a flower inside of her, a child, but now it's gone...it's dead. Or it could be the child saying-I was supposed to be this beautiful creature, but there's nothing in me worth wanting, all that should have been in me is dead, my parents killed it. I honestly think it's the child saying that she's picking the dead memories form her soul because she wants to feel alive, but those memories are making her feel dead inside.]
from gelatin to specimen to emptiness
[They are talking about the baby here, not the mother. The mother isn't even in this equation. The baby goes from gelatin, to specimen, to emptiness. Meaning, she went from being an embryo, to being a newborn, to being a child whose parents made her feel empty.
I WILL BE AVENGED.
[She will avenge her death, the death of herself. She didn't actually die, her parents made her feel dead inside.]
we are the 1000 children of death
[You don't have to actually be dead to feel dead. This is basically talking about all of the 'unwanted' children who had parents that treated them as if their existence meant nothing, as if they were a mistake.]
I think that about sums up my opinion.
I meant to say *the black of her mother, not the back.
I meant to say *the black of her mother, not the back.
Or from gelatin to specimen to emptiness could mean that she goes from being the unfertilized egg ( gelatin) to being an embryo ( specimen) then to being "aborted" (emptiness) which was supposed to happen but it didn't so that's how she is describing the original plan that either failed or got complicated. Maybe?
Or from gelatin to specimen to emptiness could mean that she goes from being the unfertilized egg ( gelatin) to being an embryo ( specimen) then to being "aborted" (emptiness) which was supposed to happen but it didn't so that's how she is describing the original plan that either failed or got complicated. Maybe?