Pete's actually said himself in a few interviews after staying clean for x-amount of time, using, staying clean, then back to using, he feels like he's killing himself and that he's dead inside. He also ends up becoming disgusted with himself because he was doing so well. (See: Dead Again)
Restless craving: Addiction
The summer snow, but it's not cold: Snow is white, as is Cocaine.
Once it's tested, thus infected: Once you've had it, you're addicted/infected.
I've lost myself again: He thought he had it under control, but really he didn't.
"It's a nightmare" is literal.
With every breath, I pray for death: The urge won't go away, and he wishes that he could get it over with already.
Pete's actually said himself in a few interviews after staying clean for x-amount of time, using, staying clean, then back to using, he feels like he's killing himself and that he's dead inside. He also ends up becoming disgusted with himself because he was doing so well. (See: Dead Again)
Restless craving: Addiction The summer snow, but it's not cold: Snow is white, as is Cocaine. Once it's tested, thus infected: Once you've had it, you're addicted/infected. I've lost myself again: He thought he had it under control, but really he didn't. "It's a nightmare" is literal. With every breath, I pray for death: The urge won't go away, and he wishes that he could get it over with already.