This is one of my best Pig Destroyer songs ever.And holy shit that slow doomy groove kicks your face in.
This song is like a love letter/suicide note the main character writes in his diary :"Dear everything" Dear diary/my everything ,my past,present and future.(he describes the person to whom this letter is addressed to as his everything. "Today I witness a crucifixion in pink and lavender and gold."He describes a wedding with the theme of those 3 colors.He compares this wedding with a crucifixion because it is not his but the girl he lovess."Ive heard people say beauty is in the details"-the people complimented the bride.."...but I dont think theyve ever seen you"-No one saw her true beauty like he did.He describes a silly blue stain on his shirt,the one she bought for him(For the wedding or when they were still lovers I don`t know) a painful fact to realize.He compares it to an inflicted wound on the sky.The pain he feels of losing her feels like stars in his belly going supernova(exploding inside him like a compact universe expanding of overwhelming feelings).He feels like a zombie that refuses to live(Powerful description) haunting the junkyards and cutting himself on scraps of her.(See 'junkyard god' as that song describes their relationship,how psychotic she really was and made him into).He then describes how he masturbated to pictures of her at her birthday party one day,thinking that if she read this she would understand that he loves her;this is man who has been reduced to a shallow and sad beggar.They were the only ones he still had.(She must have taken all she owns back).But he feels not only guilty for doing it but for his whole life.everything felt wrong.He is embarrassed of his life so he hopes she would not find him alive with this letter."I love you" (what a coward and manipulator).This is one of those songs that not even a million emo-bands can write
This is one of my best Pig Destroyer songs ever.And holy shit that slow doomy groove kicks your face in. This song is like a love letter/suicide note the main character writes in his diary :"Dear everything" Dear diary/my everything ,my past,present and future.(he describes the person to whom this letter is addressed to as his everything. "Today I witness a crucifixion in pink and lavender and gold."He describes a wedding with the theme of those 3 colors.He compares this wedding with a crucifixion because it is not his but the girl he loves
s."Ive heard people say beauty is in the details"-the people complimented the bride.."...but I dont think theyve ever seen you"-No one saw her true beauty like he did.He describes a silly blue stain on his shirt,the one she bought for him(For the wedding or when they were still lovers I don`t know) a painful fact to realize.He compares it to an inflicted wound on the sky.The pain he feels of losing her feels like stars in his belly going supernova(exploding inside him like a compact universe expanding of overwhelming feelings).He feels like a zombie that refuses to live(Powerful description) haunting the junkyards and cutting himself on scraps of her.(See 'junkyard god' as that song describes their relationship,how psychotic she really was and made him into).He then describes how he masturbated to pictures of her at her birthday party one day,thinking that if she read this she would understand that he loves her;this is man who has been reduced to a shallow and sad beggar.They were the only ones he still had.(She must have taken all she owns back).But he feels not only guilty for doing it but for his whole life.everything felt wrong.He is embarrassed of his life so he hopes she would not find him alive with this letter."I love you" (what a coward and manipulator).This is one of those songs that not even a million emo-bands can write