Okay people, bear with me. I'm not sure if anyone's thought of this yet. I skimmed through most of the comments and found ashabella04's to be the one closest to my interpretation. Except, in my take on it, the song doesn't end on such a positive note.
"Bike down, down to the downtown
Down to the lock down, boards, nails lie around."
I think he's returning to his hometown, only to see how much it's changed since he left. He visits the old hangouts, his old friends' homes, to find them either vacated, closed down, or taken over by new people.
"I crouch like a crow
Contrasting the snow
For the agony, I'd rather know
'Cause blinded I am blindsided."
I think he's outside one of those friends' houses, except this friend happens to still be living here. Maybe it's a past love, or just someone who he used to be close with...it could even be a family member that he hasn't spoken to in years. He crouches down so he won't be seen. I basically agree with ashabella04's interpretation on the "agony" line. It's being so consumed by depression that you end up giving in to it, because it's all you've ever known, and you don't believe it's possible to break free from it. You don't even want to get better because you think it's hopeless. He could be "blindsided" by the severe depression, "blind" meaning his mind, his whole POV on life, is clouded. He's screwed up because of the mental illness. That's what makes the song so sad...it's not even the REAL him anymore.
"Peek in, into the peer in
I'm not really like this, I'm probably plightless."
Obviously he's now looking into the window of this house. The second line is one of my favorites - it's that self-hatred for even being sad. Like, "why do I deserve to be upset? I have no REAL problems. How dare I complain? Stop whining and feeling sorry for yourself." This negativity just comes right back around and takes the person further into the depression. It's a chain reaction.
"I cup the window
I'm crippled and slow
For the agony
I'd rather know
'Cause blinded I am blindsided."
Still at the window, he's probably overcome with emotions, memories, and momentary hesitation (I'll get to that later). Instead of changing his mind, he pushes his doubts aside, and says goodbye. He doesn't want to interrupt this friend/former love/family member. So instead of ringing the door bell, he "cups the window", sort of hugging the person one last time.
"Would you really rush out for me now?"
This is another favorite. It's so desperate sounding, like he doesn't believe anyone would want to see him, let alone save him. Maybe he did something in the past that caused him to stay away for so long. It's also really bittersweet, because it suggests that if this person HAD rushed out, by chance, and found him - it might have prevented the future.
"Taut line, down to the shoreline
The end of a blood line, the moon is a cold light."
He walks down to the water. Probably a lake, not an ocean, since there's snow. He apparently knows this place well enough to get there in short time (taut line), which is why I believe it's his hometown. Now the "end of a blood line" is what makes me feel it takes a darker turn than what ashabella04 thought. His mission throughout this whole song was to say goodbye to his home, his friends, his family, even if he didn't really tell them. It was a silent closure he needed before he took his own life and ended his family's bloodline.
"There's a pull to the flow
My feet melt the snow
For the irony, I'd rather know
'Cause blinded I was blindsided."
Pull to the flow makes me think of blood loss, specifically a fatal bloodletting in the wrists. Sorry to be morbid, but since I'm already talking about suicide, then what the hell, might as well be. Anyways, his feet melting the snow is ironic because he's dying. His body temp is getting colder, yet he's still warm enough to melt the snow. Although that could be totally wrong, I have no fucking idea. The possibilities are endless - maybe the friend/love/family member that he didn't see in town was at the lake already/or showed up one minute too late? Maybe it's ironic because he was a therapist who helped people overcome their own depression? IDK.
It's so sad, because I feel there were many chances for him. He second-guessed himself at the window, reliving the good moments. Seeing someone he used to know made him hesitate - sadly not enough. If only one person had seen him, maybe they would have stopped him for a visit, derailing his plan. Maybe if he had just knocked on the door of that house, the one with the person he thought wouldn't "rush out" for him, it would have changed the whole course of things.
I've always heard the song this way, for some reason...I think it's because I'm a freak who tends to obsess about vague lyrics until they get so twisted in my mind that they're able to serve my extremely convoluted theories that all somehow end in terrible death and sadness. Yes, that's a run-on sentence. Bite me.
I'm sorry to anyone who's read through this emo bullshit. Please be nice? :)
Okay people, bear with me. I'm not sure if anyone's thought of this yet. I skimmed through most of the comments and found ashabella04's to be the one closest to my interpretation. Except, in my take on it, the song doesn't end on such a positive note.
"Bike down, down to the downtown Down to the lock down, boards, nails lie around."
I think he's returning to his hometown, only to see how much it's changed since he left. He visits the old hangouts, his old friends' homes, to find them either vacated, closed down, or taken over by new people.
"I crouch like a crow Contrasting the snow For the agony, I'd rather know 'Cause blinded I am blindsided."
I think he's outside one of those friends' houses, except this friend happens to still be living here. Maybe it's a past love, or just someone who he used to be close with...it could even be a family member that he hasn't spoken to in years. He crouches down so he won't be seen. I basically agree with ashabella04's interpretation on the "agony" line. It's being so consumed by depression that you end up giving in to it, because it's all you've ever known, and you don't believe it's possible to break free from it. You don't even want to get better because you think it's hopeless. He could be "blindsided" by the severe depression, "blind" meaning his mind, his whole POV on life, is clouded. He's screwed up because of the mental illness. That's what makes the song so sad...it's not even the REAL him anymore.
"Peek in, into the peer in I'm not really like this, I'm probably plightless."
Obviously he's now looking into the window of this house. The second line is one of my favorites - it's that self-hatred for even being sad. Like, "why do I deserve to be upset? I have no REAL problems. How dare I complain? Stop whining and feeling sorry for yourself." This negativity just comes right back around and takes the person further into the depression. It's a chain reaction.
"I cup the window I'm crippled and slow For the agony I'd rather know 'Cause blinded I am blindsided."
Still at the window, he's probably overcome with emotions, memories, and momentary hesitation (I'll get to that later). Instead of changing his mind, he pushes his doubts aside, and says goodbye. He doesn't want to interrupt this friend/former love/family member. So instead of ringing the door bell, he "cups the window", sort of hugging the person one last time.
"Would you really rush out for me now?"
This is another favorite. It's so desperate sounding, like he doesn't believe anyone would want to see him, let alone save him. Maybe he did something in the past that caused him to stay away for so long. It's also really bittersweet, because it suggests that if this person HAD rushed out, by chance, and found him - it might have prevented the future.
"Taut line, down to the shoreline The end of a blood line, the moon is a cold light."
He walks down to the water. Probably a lake, not an ocean, since there's snow. He apparently knows this place well enough to get there in short time (taut line), which is why I believe it's his hometown. Now the "end of a blood line" is what makes me feel it takes a darker turn than what ashabella04 thought. His mission throughout this whole song was to say goodbye to his home, his friends, his family, even if he didn't really tell them. It was a silent closure he needed before he took his own life and ended his family's bloodline.
"There's a pull to the flow My feet melt the snow For the irony, I'd rather know 'Cause blinded I was blindsided."
Pull to the flow makes me think of blood loss, specifically a fatal bloodletting in the wrists. Sorry to be morbid, but since I'm already talking about suicide, then what the hell, might as well be. Anyways, his feet melting the snow is ironic because he's dying. His body temp is getting colder, yet he's still warm enough to melt the snow. Although that could be totally wrong, I have no fucking idea. The possibilities are endless - maybe the friend/love/family member that he didn't see in town was at the lake already/or showed up one minute too late? Maybe it's ironic because he was a therapist who helped people overcome their own depression? IDK.
It's so sad, because I feel there were many chances for him. He second-guessed himself at the window, reliving the good moments. Seeing someone he used to know made him hesitate - sadly not enough. If only one person had seen him, maybe they would have stopped him for a visit, derailing his plan. Maybe if he had just knocked on the door of that house, the one with the person he thought wouldn't "rush out" for him, it would have changed the whole course of things.
I've always heard the song this way, for some reason...I think it's because I'm a freak who tends to obsess about vague lyrics until they get so twisted in my mind that they're able to serve my extremely convoluted theories that all somehow end in terrible death and sadness. Yes, that's a run-on sentence. Bite me.
I'm sorry to anyone who's read through this emo bullshit. Please be nice? :)