to me, this song is definitely about trying to be in a relationship and struggling with his bipolar disorder.
this part especially sticks out for me, it represents the manic state bipolar people go through:
"I could sleep well, if only I tried
But I stay up and dream of a bride to be."
and then this part represents the depressive state:
"I am stuck on your bedroom floor
With the thought that I may not be
As great as those who came before."
talking to his therapist about the girl he loves/wants to be with:
"There's a man assigned to me
And he checks on my stability.
We discuss you every week.
Then I rinse and rinse, repeat."
this part is about trying to prove that he can manage the disorder better and getting over the mania:
"But maybe, I can show you, baby!
Maybe, I can relax for good, whoa, baby!
I can show you... maybe... baby."
people with bipolar disorder are sometimes known to spend massive amounts of money when they're manic, so the "i can't afford your love" part also relates to it in a literal and metaphorical sense.
this song is really close to me. i dated a guy with bipolar disorder for two years, and it can be a huge struggle for both people in the relationship.
to me, this song is definitely about trying to be in a relationship and struggling with his bipolar disorder. this part especially sticks out for me, it represents the manic state bipolar people go through: "I could sleep well, if only I tried But I stay up and dream of a bride to be."
and then this part represents the depressive state: "I am stuck on your bedroom floor With the thought that I may not be As great as those who came before."
talking to his therapist about the girl he loves/wants to be with: "There's a man assigned to me And he checks on my stability. We discuss you every week. Then I rinse and rinse, repeat."
this part is about trying to prove that he can manage the disorder better and getting over the mania: "But maybe, I can show you, baby! Maybe, I can relax for good, whoa, baby! I can show you... maybe... baby."
people with bipolar disorder are sometimes known to spend massive amounts of money when they're manic, so the "i can't afford your love" part also relates to it in a literal and metaphorical sense.
this song is really close to me. i dated a guy with bipolar disorder for two years, and it can be a huge struggle for both people in the relationship.