I think in the first verse he is talking about being reborn at the first show his friends gave, and how it was so breathtaking and magical, especially under the influence of the drugs. But unlike him there were other kids there who only cared about getting high and not the music, so they barely noticed when the concert was over, and he wants to draw a line between them and him, despite admitting in the chorus that he is a junkie.
In the second verse he describes the difficulties of actually becoming the performer, how there is so much pressure and so many expectations, especially when playing for your friends like that, because they knew you before you were a big name and they don't care that you are supposedly talented, they will judge you like the kid they knew you as. So he describes the process of creating the album to try to impress everyone, and how he once again supported the music with a liberal dose of drugs.
Then the chorus changes to being a junkie for love, not drugs, perhaps when he gets some groupies for his new, successful band.
I think in the first verse he is talking about being reborn at the first show his friends gave, and how it was so breathtaking and magical, especially under the influence of the drugs. But unlike him there were other kids there who only cared about getting high and not the music, so they barely noticed when the concert was over, and he wants to draw a line between them and him, despite admitting in the chorus that he is a junkie.
In the second verse he describes the difficulties of actually becoming the performer, how there is so much pressure and so many expectations, especially when playing for your friends like that, because they knew you before you were a big name and they don't care that you are supposedly talented, they will judge you like the kid they knew you as. So he describes the process of creating the album to try to impress everyone, and how he once again supported the music with a liberal dose of drugs.
Then the chorus changes to being a junkie for love, not drugs, perhaps when he gets some groupies for his new, successful band.