It occurs to me to add that escape in a drug leaves an empty feeling and even more distressing when the high wears off. To love with one's fingers only implies an incomplete love. A whole love would include both body and mind. To be rocked back and forth implies that she feels like a frightened child again has yet come to terms with the abandonment of her belief system (the starving soul). It is only in 'purging' her mind of the guilt she is feeling that she can nourish her true soul, freedom of mind.
It occurs to me to add that escape in a drug leaves an empty feeling and even more distressing when the high wears off. To love with one's fingers only implies an incomplete love. A whole love would include both body and mind. To be rocked back and forth implies that she feels like a frightened child again has yet come to terms with the abandonment of her belief system (the starving soul). It is only in 'purging' her mind of the guilt she is feeling that she can nourish her true soul, freedom of mind.