This wonderfully soft and melancholic tune struck me first as being about a someone dying of terminal illness (the cancer link has been proposed earlier in this thread). However, I think an alternate interpretation is one that suggests the narrator is a woman who has come to terms with herself and is bemoaning the feeling of alienation that is resulting from the other people in her life failing to understand her.
She's looking at her hands and body and trying to understand her own thoughts and feelings and why people treat her as they do. Her self-realization starts with figuring out that she doesn't need to lie to herself or try to be someone else to be content. The lines about her hands and body also suggest some sort of detachment from the sense of self - she knows she's lying to herself but she still wants to whisper into the mirror "face saving" affirmations such as "you are beautiful" and "one day everything will be ok".
She refers to being treated "wrong" as a reference to the reaction of others to her depressive disposition and low self-esteem. Her distressed mental state has been a persistent part of her life and has consistently pushed people out of her inner circle of loves and friendships. Her self-contempt has resulted in her becoming alienated and the "fine winding tendrils" of dark thoughts that "strangle the heart" and make her unlovable and incapable of loving herself. Once again, she's talking about using false affirmations (idealistic "promises") to soften the blows to her own sense of self.
The slow dying flower is a reference to the felling that her inner beauty withering away because of the tendrils strangling her heart. As she grows more depressive and finally despondent and cold ("the frost killing hour") is again pushing her away from others and causing her to hate herself even more.
Finally at the midpoint of the song she realizes that the depression ("the darkness) is an integral part of her and she learns to accept herself for who she is. She recognizes that she can be a sweet and likable person ("the sweetness"). She needs these things to finally feel like herself - and a coherent whole. Her newfound confidence is indicated by the much bolder voice in this section of the song and the more upbeat tempo.
Now that she has a clear sense of self, she understands that depression (the darkness) and lovableness (the sweetness) and flaws (the weakness)are all core parts of her being. She needs all of them in combination and and different times to be a whole person. She also realizes that she's not weak to have needs and to "need" what everyone else also needs: the comfort of a caring figure and a "kiss goodnight" from a caring and sympathetic soul.
In the next stanza she reverts back to her depressive state of low-self confidence and limited hope for change as she again speaks of the "slow dying flower" as the result of another crisis in a romantic relationship. She indicates this by writing about being "touched" emotionally by memories of her own first timid "trembling" touches to her lovers body. She is again trying to comfort herself with "face saving promises" at this point.
In the following stanza, she seems to think that she deserves to be depressed (the darkness) and she needs to remember the sweet moments to keep herself going but that only makes the pain worse (the sadness and the weakness). She's in a state of desperately wishing for a non-judgmental parental like figure to be present and sing her a lullaby, kiss her good night, and tell her she is an "Angel", and "the sweet love of my life".
"Well is it dark enough? Can you see me?" is a reference to the depth of her desperation and the desire to be accepted and understood despite her moodiness and sadness (nobody wants to hang out with someone whose emotional life drags others down). She's begging a friend or lover to reach out to her in her moment of dire need for love and acceptance. I think in the final lines she's expressing the self love that keeps her going and the contrasting that with her desire to die. "You'd better shut your mouth" is perhaps a comment to the critical voices in her head telling her "you're not good enough". She demands the critical vocies in her head "better shut your mouth and kiss me now and catch your death" - Leave me alone and in silence (thereby reinforcing her loneliness) "oh, I mean this".
This wonderfully soft and melancholic tune struck me first as being about a someone dying of terminal illness (the cancer link has been proposed earlier in this thread). However, I think an alternate interpretation is one that suggests the narrator is a woman who has come to terms with herself and is bemoaning the feeling of alienation that is resulting from the other people in her life failing to understand her.
She's looking at her hands and body and trying to understand her own thoughts and feelings and why people treat her as they do. Her self-realization starts with figuring out that she doesn't need to lie to herself or try to be someone else to be content. The lines about her hands and body also suggest some sort of detachment from the sense of self - she knows she's lying to herself but she still wants to whisper into the mirror "face saving" affirmations such as "you are beautiful" and "one day everything will be ok".
She refers to being treated "wrong" as a reference to the reaction of others to her depressive disposition and low self-esteem. Her distressed mental state has been a persistent part of her life and has consistently pushed people out of her inner circle of loves and friendships. Her self-contempt has resulted in her becoming alienated and the "fine winding tendrils" of dark thoughts that "strangle the heart" and make her unlovable and incapable of loving herself. Once again, she's talking about using false affirmations (idealistic "promises") to soften the blows to her own sense of self.
The slow dying flower is a reference to the felling that her inner beauty withering away because of the tendrils strangling her heart. As she grows more depressive and finally despondent and cold ("the frost killing hour") is again pushing her away from others and causing her to hate herself even more.
Finally at the midpoint of the song she realizes that the depression ("the darkness) is an integral part of her and she learns to accept herself for who she is. She recognizes that she can be a sweet and likable person ("the sweetness"). She needs these things to finally feel like herself - and a coherent whole. Her newfound confidence is indicated by the much bolder voice in this section of the song and the more upbeat tempo.
Now that she has a clear sense of self, she understands that depression (the darkness) and lovableness (the sweetness) and flaws (the weakness)are all core parts of her being. She needs all of them in combination and and different times to be a whole person. She also realizes that she's not weak to have needs and to "need" what everyone else also needs: the comfort of a caring figure and a "kiss goodnight" from a caring and sympathetic soul.
In the next stanza she reverts back to her depressive state of low-self confidence and limited hope for change as she again speaks of the "slow dying flower" as the result of another crisis in a romantic relationship. She indicates this by writing about being "touched" emotionally by memories of her own first timid "trembling" touches to her lovers body. She is again trying to comfort herself with "face saving promises" at this point.
In the following stanza, she seems to think that she deserves to be depressed (the darkness) and she needs to remember the sweet moments to keep herself going but that only makes the pain worse (the sadness and the weakness). She's in a state of desperately wishing for a non-judgmental parental like figure to be present and sing her a lullaby, kiss her good night, and tell her she is an "Angel", and "the sweet love of my life".
"Well is it dark enough? Can you see me?" is a reference to the depth of her desperation and the desire to be accepted and understood despite her moodiness and sadness (nobody wants to hang out with someone whose emotional life drags others down). She's begging a friend or lover to reach out to her in her moment of dire need for love and acceptance. I think in the final lines she's expressing the self love that keeps her going and the contrasting that with her desire to die. "You'd better shut your mouth" is perhaps a comment to the critical voices in her head telling her "you're not good enough". She demands the critical vocies in her head "better shut your mouth and kiss me now and catch your death" - Leave me alone and in silence (thereby reinforcing her loneliness) "oh, I mean this".