She's terrified of love, basically. She doesn't wanna commit to someone because she's already been hurt, and she's all "Wtf. I don't fall in love", and she hates it, but then again she loves it. And, it's 'disgusting' because she's so confused and angry at herself because she's not supposed to be 'that girl' that falls in love.
I think I understand this song completely.
She's terrified of love, basically. She doesn't wanna commit to someone because she's already been hurt, and she's all "Wtf. I don't fall in love", and she hates it, but then again she loves it. And, it's 'disgusting' because she's so confused and angry at herself because she's not supposed to be 'that girl' that falls in love.