Shoreline

I think it's a bit more complicated than a lover being dumped.

Here's my translation analysis...

So you say I’m better of here As dry as the shoreline In an ocean of fear

→ You tell me I can’t fall for you and can’t love you, because the ‘ocean of fear’, the depth of falling in love is too much for me. But in reality, it’s too much for you, and because you leave yourself at the shore you say I should stay there too

So you say I can’t be alive Until there is nothing When we’re meeting eyes again

→ You tell me that what we’re feeling is keeping me from living my life, from doing the things I want to do & the things you want to do. So we have to dilute and ignore what we’re feeling or else we will reach ‘death’, according to you, death of the individual, safe from emotion & its rough waves & tumbles.

Day by day, I wander these halls And you’re casting a shadow Onto every wall

→ Even though I continue living my life as it is, you follow me everywhere like a shadow. You are apart of me, apart of what I feel; you change me with every moment we have been together.

But all the way you ring in my ear From the moment I knew you were leaving me here. You’re leaving me here.

→ I have not been able to forget what you told me–that you can’t fall for me and therefore I cannot fall in love with you. We’re at the shoreline. Dry, empty, heartbroken.

This give and take, This waiting on time It’s this twisted up memory that I can’t unwind

→ Knowing that something could happen between us, with the fact that we are together and that we feel something for each other, gives me hope that we might be able to be together. But you don’t allow us to be together. I can’t reconcile this fact–that we were meant to be but we can’t be.

These fragile words that fall from my mouth I’m crumbling and crowded But I’ve figured you out I’ve figured you out

→ I bare my soul for you, I let you in the depths of my heart–I say things that I can’t tell anyone else. But you disregard its fragility and crush it. Maybe you never loved me at all. Maybe I’m just fooling myself. It pains me that I’ve lived an illusion.

[Note that the falsetto is strictly for these two stanzas–meaning they mirror each other. A sort of hopeful, childish and innocent (i.e. young boys have high voices) perspective]

The shoreline calls the sea For simple words and company But words go on and on Till they collide and all is gone.

→ I want to go beyond the ‘shoreline’ where you’ve left me at and take the fall. Despite that I might be left heart broken, it’s better than just waiting by the shore. However…perhaps my motivation for this is really to cure the deep loneliness within.

I dive into the deep Into the sea inside of me To find another song To find a place where I belong

→I understand now that to love and fall for someone else you must first love yourself. You can’t fill this emptiness for ‘simple words and company’ from someone else. You can only find it within yourself. So I’m going to take the plunge, the risk, but this time it’s not someone else–this time it’s for me.

To discover who I really am.

It took a long time to finally figure this out. What do you guys think? :)