A little tidbit to the insensitive people who seem to think cutting is a middle school fad that exists for them to laugh and point at: I am 30 years old and I've been a cutter since I was 18. I was OUT of high school when I started, and the last time I did it was three years ago. Since then, every day is a struggle not to give in to temptation. I want to cut myself still. I want to do it every day. The worst part about it is people like YOU. You are a lot like my family, who judged the shit out of me for my addiction. Every time they saw a new mark on me they would corner me and treat me like a fucking lab rat. They gossiped about it to all their friends right in front of me and talked about how stupid I was, that I was an attention whore, that I was fucked up in the head and they NEVER ONCE made the slightest attempt to understand how I felt. They NEVER asked me why I felt the need to do it. And they are the only reason I haven't sliced up my skin for the last three years; because I cannot deal with the humiliation and judgement they bestow on me when they find out, and they always find out!
But it's Hell, because this just makes me want to get release with a nice sharp pair of scissors! I am abstaining solely because my family members are judgemental assholes and not because I wanted to quit, because TRUST ME I NEVER WANTED TO QUIT. Cutting gave me the best feeling ever! So it's a choice between being judged and gossiped about and humiliated in public on a regular basis, or living with constant hunger pangs, because that's what it feels like to a cutter who can't get their fix; it feels like violent hunger pangs.
So if you think it's funny that I feel this way, FUCK YOU. Shirley Manson is right. You will NEVER comprehend it because you just want something to feel superior to.
@RedDollShoes I am 57 years old and started cutting within the last few weeks. It is difficult to explain, but I get an incredible release of stress by doing it. I don’t understand it, honestly . . . .
@RedDollShoes I am 57 years old and started cutting within the last few weeks. It is difficult to explain, but I get an incredible release of stress by doing it. I don’t understand it, honestly . . . .
@RedDollShoes They probably believe they're doing good for/by you 'cause they think making you feel that way is better than you doing it... I GET the mindset, I'll just never truly understand it. Branding/burning/scarring was always my thing - the solder rework station can look mighty tempting at times
@RedDollShoes They probably believe they're doing good for/by you 'cause they think making you feel that way is better than you doing it... I GET the mindset, I'll just never truly understand it. Branding/burning/scarring was always my thing - the solder rework station can look mighty tempting at times
A little tidbit to the insensitive people who seem to think cutting is a middle school fad that exists for them to laugh and point at: I am 30 years old and I've been a cutter since I was 18. I was OUT of high school when I started, and the last time I did it was three years ago. Since then, every day is a struggle not to give in to temptation. I want to cut myself still. I want to do it every day. The worst part about it is people like YOU. You are a lot like my family, who judged the shit out of me for my addiction. Every time they saw a new mark on me they would corner me and treat me like a fucking lab rat. They gossiped about it to all their friends right in front of me and talked about how stupid I was, that I was an attention whore, that I was fucked up in the head and they NEVER ONCE made the slightest attempt to understand how I felt. They NEVER asked me why I felt the need to do it. And they are the only reason I haven't sliced up my skin for the last three years; because I cannot deal with the humiliation and judgement they bestow on me when they find out, and they always find out!
But it's Hell, because this just makes me want to get release with a nice sharp pair of scissors! I am abstaining solely because my family members are judgemental assholes and not because I wanted to quit, because TRUST ME I NEVER WANTED TO QUIT. Cutting gave me the best feeling ever! So it's a choice between being judged and gossiped about and humiliated in public on a regular basis, or living with constant hunger pangs, because that's what it feels like to a cutter who can't get their fix; it feels like violent hunger pangs.
So if you think it's funny that I feel this way, FUCK YOU. Shirley Manson is right. You will NEVER comprehend it because you just want something to feel superior to.
@RedDollShoes I am 57 years old and started cutting within the last few weeks. It is difficult to explain, but I get an incredible release of stress by doing it. I don’t understand it, honestly . . . .
@RedDollShoes I am 57 years old and started cutting within the last few weeks. It is difficult to explain, but I get an incredible release of stress by doing it. I don’t understand it, honestly . . . .
@RedDollShoes They probably believe they're doing good for/by you 'cause they think making you feel that way is better than you doing it... I GET the mindset, I'll just never truly understand it. Branding/burning/scarring was always my thing - the solder rework station can look mighty tempting at times
@RedDollShoes They probably believe they're doing good for/by you 'cause they think making you feel that way is better than you doing it... I GET the mindset, I'll just never truly understand it. Branding/burning/scarring was always my thing - the solder rework station can look mighty tempting at times