My impression is that Lewis here is trying to take his own life - surely, the ultimate betrayal to a creator - but is stopped by a Heartlander who is still a believer. He doesn't succeed in his attempt but his resentment towards Owen the creator grows, and this leads him towards a path of retribution rather than resignation as the song that follows is Oh Heartland, Up Yours. Not all of the lyrics match, but that's how I saw the story panning out in this song.
My impression is that Lewis here is trying to take his own life - surely, the ultimate betrayal to a creator - but is stopped by a Heartlander who is still a believer. He doesn't succeed in his attempt but his resentment towards Owen the creator grows, and this leads him towards a path of retribution rather than resignation as the song that follows is Oh Heartland, Up Yours. Not all of the lyrics match, but that's how I saw the story panning out in this song.