This song is really powerful for me because it summed up my life when I was battling an eating disorder, both at face value and in the deeper emotion of the song. I'm pretty sure bulimia's not what the GGD were singing about, but it fits so well that it's a little creepy. Some of the highlights:
"when you drop down, everything's all the same" - on your knees, vomiting, just like the day, week, month before
"Saccharine caffeine nicotine gum" - substitutes for food and energy
"Yeah it tastes sweet but it's not for long" - need I explain?
"When you're looking for truth on the cover of a magazine / How does it feel / When you find out what you're not gonna be" - seeing attractive models and celebrities everywhere you look, and being desperate to measure up to them
"They give you your image and the things you believe" - the only thing that matters in your life becomes being thin, whether you want to feel that way or not
"How does it feel when you're out on your own / And now it's too late to come home" - my disorder started in college, because I suddenly had all this time and freedom and loneliness, and before you know it, you're addicted because there's nothing and no one else in your life to stop you
"And it's hard to be free when you're down on your knees" - again, addicted to the act of purging as strongly as one can be addicted to drugs. All you want in the world is to be free of your body, but now you're more fixated on it than ever
"Now you're a supermarket punk rock television comedy / Out on the scene / Yeah I bit down now there's no hand to feed" - out of control, obsessed with mass media and your own failures, pushing people away so they don't stop you from your disorder
"And all the beautiful images lining your walls / Pop radio screaming down the halls" - reminds me of my dorm room
"Now you think you found something real" - binging/purging become all that matter in your world
"When it's all about money and the things that you need" - binging and emetics costs a lot of money, but you need it like someone might need a hit of heroin
"Live a big lie and they all believe" - oh, boy. Eventually, people noticed I was losing weight, and I had to hide my behaviors from them. I told them I did it all healthfully and naturally, and everyone believed me. They were constantly praising me, trying to imitate me, asking me for advice. I lied left and right.
"When it's all been said before / And all been done" - it's a ritual, an obsession, an addiction.
"Lies weigh more than truth / Innocence looks good on you / Now everybody wants to know your name" - what an ending. My binging got so severe that I started regaining weight even though I was vomiting twice and exercising for hours every day. I kept trying to hide from everyone, but they wouldn't leave me alone. I was the only one in my family who wasn't obese, and they just kept badgering and idolizing me until I truly thought suicide was the only way out. I couldn't bring myself to tell anyone the truth.
This song doesn't promote bulimia; it's a devastatingly accurate look at the collapse of everything around you when it happens. If I hadn't gotten confidential, free therapy from my college, I wouldn't be here today. To this day, no one knows about this period in my life.
Again, I know the GGD didn't set out to make it about an eating disorder. It just fits that interpretation very well in my eyes. Thanks for listening, everyone.
i agree completely that this is about eating disorders. "lies weigh more than truth, innocence looks good on you" its saying that hiding yourself and obessing over this evil is weighing down on you, when all you want to do is lose wieght. you'd look better if you were free of your ED and could love your body for what it was. eating disorder make you bitter and dishonest, and he's saying that healthy is much more attractive than skinny.
i agree completely that this is about eating disorders. "lies weigh more than truth, innocence looks good on you" its saying that hiding yourself and obessing over this evil is weighing down on you, when all you want to do is lose wieght. you'd look better if you were free of your ED and could love your body for what it was. eating disorder make you bitter and dishonest, and he's saying that healthy is much more attractive than skinny.
This song is really powerful for me because it summed up my life when I was battling an eating disorder, both at face value and in the deeper emotion of the song. I'm pretty sure bulimia's not what the GGD were singing about, but it fits so well that it's a little creepy. Some of the highlights:
"when you drop down, everything's all the same" - on your knees, vomiting, just like the day, week, month before
"Saccharine caffeine nicotine gum" - substitutes for food and energy
"Yeah it tastes sweet but it's not for long" - need I explain?
"When you're looking for truth on the cover of a magazine / How does it feel / When you find out what you're not gonna be" - seeing attractive models and celebrities everywhere you look, and being desperate to measure up to them
"They give you your image and the things you believe" - the only thing that matters in your life becomes being thin, whether you want to feel that way or not
"How does it feel when you're out on your own / And now it's too late to come home" - my disorder started in college, because I suddenly had all this time and freedom and loneliness, and before you know it, you're addicted because there's nothing and no one else in your life to stop you
"And it's hard to be free when you're down on your knees" - again, addicted to the act of purging as strongly as one can be addicted to drugs. All you want in the world is to be free of your body, but now you're more fixated on it than ever
"Now you're a supermarket punk rock television comedy / Out on the scene / Yeah I bit down now there's no hand to feed" - out of control, obsessed with mass media and your own failures, pushing people away so they don't stop you from your disorder
"And all the beautiful images lining your walls / Pop radio screaming down the halls" - reminds me of my dorm room
"Now you think you found something real" - binging/purging become all that matter in your world
"When it's all about money and the things that you need" - binging and emetics costs a lot of money, but you need it like someone might need a hit of heroin
"Live a big lie and they all believe" - oh, boy. Eventually, people noticed I was losing weight, and I had to hide my behaviors from them. I told them I did it all healthfully and naturally, and everyone believed me. They were constantly praising me, trying to imitate me, asking me for advice. I lied left and right.
"When it's all been said before / And all been done" - it's a ritual, an obsession, an addiction.
"Lies weigh more than truth / Innocence looks good on you / Now everybody wants to know your name" - what an ending. My binging got so severe that I started regaining weight even though I was vomiting twice and exercising for hours every day. I kept trying to hide from everyone, but they wouldn't leave me alone. I was the only one in my family who wasn't obese, and they just kept badgering and idolizing me until I truly thought suicide was the only way out. I couldn't bring myself to tell anyone the truth.
This song doesn't promote bulimia; it's a devastatingly accurate look at the collapse of everything around you when it happens. If I hadn't gotten confidential, free therapy from my college, I wouldn't be here today. To this day, no one knows about this period in my life.
Again, I know the GGD didn't set out to make it about an eating disorder. It just fits that interpretation very well in my eyes. Thanks for listening, everyone.
i agree completely that this is about eating disorders. "lies weigh more than truth, innocence looks good on you" its saying that hiding yourself and obessing over this evil is weighing down on you, when all you want to do is lose wieght. you'd look better if you were free of your ED and could love your body for what it was. eating disorder make you bitter and dishonest, and he's saying that healthy is much more attractive than skinny.
i agree completely that this is about eating disorders. "lies weigh more than truth, innocence looks good on you" its saying that hiding yourself and obessing over this evil is weighing down on you, when all you want to do is lose wieght. you'd look better if you were free of your ED and could love your body for what it was. eating disorder make you bitter and dishonest, and he's saying that healthy is much more attractive than skinny.