To me it's about my eating disorder/ recovery from it.
"You chew it up and spit it out" - I used to do this to my food.
The "monster" being the past that caused the ED and the voicing being the actual thing,
"'Cause you thought that the voices were dead, that the monster had left with your old single bed" - Everything was better now you had someone to go through it with you, but in my experience, I try to be better for them, perfect, which means weight included.
"Now I think he was your friend once
you needed him I guess
needed his protection
but now he is your hindrance" - I thought it was a simple diet, then everything got out of hand.
"he is the one who stops you
from saying how you feel
And cover up what's real" - He really does
"And now it's so far so good
So why do I feel no different?" - When losing the weight you think you'll feel better about yourself, but you never do, you always to big, ugly
"It's always one step forward and two steps back" - You gain weight and fell like you're getting better then it all comes back with one simple thought and you go backwards.
And for the voices they do scream in your head, screaming all the bad thoughts, lies and to be perfect.
To me it's about my eating disorder/ recovery from it.
"You chew it up and spit it out" - I used to do this to my food.
The "monster" being the past that caused the ED and the voicing being the actual thing, "'Cause you thought that the voices were dead, that the monster had left with your old single bed" - Everything was better now you had someone to go through it with you, but in my experience, I try to be better for them, perfect, which means weight included.
"Now I think he was your friend once you needed him I guess needed his protection but now he is your hindrance" - I thought it was a simple diet, then everything got out of hand.
"he is the one who stops you from saying how you feel And cover up what's real" - He really does
"And now it's so far so good So why do I feel no different?" - When losing the weight you think you'll feel better about yourself, but you never do, you always to big, ugly
"It's always one step forward and two steps back" - You gain weight and fell like you're getting better then it all comes back with one simple thought and you go backwards.
And for the voices they do scream in your head, screaming all the bad thoughts, lies and to be perfect.
But that's just what it means to me.