This reminds me much of a feeling of rebirth and reconciling your past, self-hated persona with a new one who can love and try to accept it. It sounds like it may reflect Darren's own feelings of guilt on finding his own homosexual self and coming to terms with the fact that he wants to feel worthwhile as himself. This is about someone trying very hard to be friends or lovers with someone new, not quite trusting yourself or others, and not quite rid of the negative programming of the past.
This reminds me much of a feeling of rebirth and reconciling your past, self-hated persona with a new one who can love and try to accept it. It sounds like it may reflect Darren's own feelings of guilt on finding his own homosexual self and coming to terms with the fact that he wants to feel worthwhile as himself. This is about someone trying very hard to be friends or lovers with someone new, not quite trusting yourself or others, and not quite rid of the negative programming of the past.