"I don't find much comfort in goin' out at night
Walkin' these streets underneath the bright city lights
Dark country roads don't take me anywhere
I'm stuck and I'm tired, and it ain't no fair"
I go for walks at night. I find myself doing this more frequently lately. I used to just go somewhere, high up, and sit. I would entertain (but not seriously consider) thoughts of jumping. The fall wouldn't be enough to kill me unless I landed awkwardly. No, I might break an ankle or something, and then be faced with all the questions "what were you doing on that roof?" "why did you do it?" and then people would think I'm suicidal or something. I'm not. I just feel depressed sometimes. I'm strong enough to get over it. Anyway, I would only entertain the thoughts. Run through the scenarios. Nothing serious. Promise.
I walk more and more. Further, and closer. It doesn't help at all. Isn't it supposed to fix things? Calm you down? Well it doesn't distract my thoughts, or give me a way to vent. I don't know what I expect it to fix. You're still all I can think about.
"I don't find much comfort in goin' out at night Walkin' these streets underneath the bright city lights Dark country roads don't take me anywhere I'm stuck and I'm tired, and it ain't no fair"
I go for walks at night. I find myself doing this more frequently lately. I used to just go somewhere, high up, and sit. I would entertain (but not seriously consider) thoughts of jumping. The fall wouldn't be enough to kill me unless I landed awkwardly. No, I might break an ankle or something, and then be faced with all the questions "what were you doing on that roof?" "why did you do it?" and then people would think I'm suicidal or something. I'm not. I just feel depressed sometimes. I'm strong enough to get over it. Anyway, I would only entertain the thoughts. Run through the scenarios. Nothing serious. Promise.
I walk more and more. Further, and closer. It doesn't help at all. Isn't it supposed to fix things? Calm you down? Well it doesn't distract my thoughts, or give me a way to vent. I don't know what I expect it to fix. You're still all I can think about.