Lyric discussion by jonnybassman 

Cover art for The Convalescent lyrics by Manic Street Preachers

to me it sounds like nicky once got so caught up in educating himself and learning about these cult figures that he started to become obsessed to the point he stopped living his life. he realised he would have to snap out of this and use it for something constructive... or he may have written it from the point of view of richey, and it was richey in fact becoming too absorbed in it all