‘And I’ve blown it’
Sitting with my headphones up loud and my eyes closed, the sound vibrates inside my head. I’ve loved this song since I first heard it. This is about loving someone, about putting EVERYTHING in and either getting nothing back.
“Have you ever been in love?
Horrible, isn’t it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens your heart
and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.
You give them a piece of you.
They don’t ask for it.
They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like ‘Maybe we should just be friends’ or ‘How very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
Nothing should be able to do that.
Especially not love.
I hate love.”
(Rose, Sandman by Neil Gaiman.)
I always thought this song made so much sense to me, always felt i put my entire heart and soul into someone and that no matter what I did they just didn’t feel as MUCH as I did, didn’t hurt, didn’t want as much, didn’t deserve as much. .
Then I met you, and I started to mess everything up.
This song reminds me of hurting someone too. Of having something beautiful and good...and losing it (and you can’t ever get that back.) (I think.)
‘And I’ve blown it’ Sitting with my headphones up loud and my eyes closed, the sound vibrates inside my head. I’ve loved this song since I first heard it. This is about loving someone, about putting EVERYTHING in and either getting nothing back.
“Have you ever been in love?
Horrible, isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.
You give them a piece of you.
They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like ‘Maybe we should just be friends’ or ‘How very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
Nothing should be able to do that.
Especially not love.
I hate love.” (Rose, Sandman by Neil Gaiman.)
I always thought this song made so much sense to me, always felt i put my entire heart and soul into someone and that no matter what I did they just didn’t feel as MUCH as I did, didn’t hurt, didn’t want as much, didn’t deserve as much. .
Then I met you, and I started to mess everything up. This song reminds me of hurting someone too. Of having something beautiful and good...and losing it (and you can’t ever get that back.) (I think.)