I agree with you wordsinreverse, I definitely pick up on the sense of helplessness here.
"I poured a glass of milk
Sat on the couch
Turned the TV off, turned it on again"
That verse reminds me of a time, recently, when I didn't know what to do with myself. I was upset, and feeling very helpless, and missed dinner, so walked down to the supermarket to get food (I wasn't hungry, I just felt as though it was 'the done thing', what normal people should be doing that time of night). I wandered around, going into the wrong places. I walked into the women's hygiene aisle, and not only am I not a woman, but I am hygienic already. (I stayed there a bit, pretended to look at things, as if I might be buying things for a friend, not wanting to bring attention to the fact that I had, inadvertantly, walked into the wrong aisle at the supermarket (who DOES that?))
I looked for a while, didn't know what I wanted, tried to feel hungry, wondered what it must be like to feel hungry, thought about everything other than hunger, bought 2 chocolate danishes, walked home, felt okay.
I agree with you wordsinreverse, I definitely pick up on the sense of helplessness here.
"I poured a glass of milk Sat on the couch Turned the TV off, turned it on again"
That verse reminds me of a time, recently, when I didn't know what to do with myself. I was upset, and feeling very helpless, and missed dinner, so walked down to the supermarket to get food (I wasn't hungry, I just felt as though it was 'the done thing', what normal people should be doing that time of night). I wandered around, going into the wrong places. I walked into the women's hygiene aisle, and not only am I not a woman, but I am hygienic already. (I stayed there a bit, pretended to look at things, as if I might be buying things for a friend, not wanting to bring attention to the fact that I had, inadvertantly, walked into the wrong aisle at the supermarket (who DOES that?))
I looked for a while, didn't know what I wanted, tried to feel hungry, wondered what it must be like to feel hungry, thought about everything other than hunger, bought 2 chocolate danishes, walked home, felt okay.