This song, I believe, is about home with everything it has to offer and heal or even damage.
In the first verse I think that's how he feels at that time. Maybe there was something in his childhood he missed out on. He's obviously missing out on sleep because of something so he has no escape from this world. No escape from reality so "I choke on sun"... Sun is an enlightening thing.. something that shows whats in the darkness. And the fact he uses the word 'choke' obviously means he cannot handle the fact that his bliss is being shattered. The least he could do would be to dream but he can't even sleep.
"And the backs of my eyes hum with things I've never done"
That line is so beautiful. The backs of his eyes, maybe being his mind but it could also just be his eyes, are humming with the things he's missed out on and not seen. And maybe his eyes are humming because he's so tired from not sleeping and having to live with the fact that he didn't do the things he wanted to.
It the second verse I think he's returned to his home. His home that he grew up in. He sees sheets on the clothesline and compares them to ghosts.. maybe ghosts of the past that maybe make the sheets very nostalgic. Or maybe they're representing the bad things that may have happened in this home. And the fact that they're swaying over dead grass doesn't make this line seem all that positive either. But then he goes on to say "was never much but we made the most" saying obviously that 'No our house wasn't much and lots of bad things happened here but we lived there and we made the most and I love it for it is my home and that's why I've returned'.. Basically no home is perfect but, as the old saying goes, 'There's no place like home'. And then comes those two eternally reassuring words 'Welcome home'.. all these ghosts of the past are welcoming him home because he needs the innocence of childhood and the sanctuary of home to heal him.
The third verse is quite hard to understand I think. These ships that he describes leaving his chest are maybe elements of the heart he is letting voyage away from him because they've let him down in the past. He's losing a part of him because of his heart breaks. "Some have names but some do not" is a hard line to figure out. Maybe some have a clear meaning like maybe one is called 'Being able to trust'... maybe that's leaving him. But the fact that most don't have a name makes it obvious that he doesn't know what parts of him are leaving but he knows that a lot of things are. and maybe in order for him to get them back he needs to go back to the people that truly know him (Parents) so they can help him find what he's lost and go back to his innocence, back when no real heart breaks occurred so he can start a whole new slate. "If you find one, please let me know what piece I've lost" I just explained that line I think.
The fourth verse is obviously about healing. The scars on his back are from those backstabbing people in his life and the hurts that he may have caused himself because of these backstabbers.. self punishing you might say. He says he doesn't need them anymore because he doesn't because like I've already said, he's starting a new slate. He's talking to his home or his parents in this verse. "You can throw them out or keep them in your mason jars" he's giving his home the option of keeping them just as long as they're still not on his back. Because he knows that the past is the past and to get rid of them fully would be quite unhealthy. He would remember mason jars being in the kitchen, remember them when his mother or father cooked so he thinks they are a safe and harmless place to keep his scars.. they won't get out. Then he says 'I've come home'.. three self reassuring words telling himself this time that he is home for he has been healed which is the reason why he came home in the first place.
Now the fifth verse is a bloody hard one to figure out. To me it's either he's left his home and everything that made him return home is coming back or he's at home but someone's left it and he can't handle it. I'm not sure but I think I'll go with the first one. Well he's left his home because it healed him like he wanted it to. But because he was away from the real world and the only nightmares were something he would think about (because what bad things would attack him at home?) now that he's in the real world again where he's choking on sun, on reality that he so obviously can't handle, he's begging reality to not come through that door. And maybe he's asking his home or his parents to come and save the day again. "please don't let them in". Now the next line he could either be talking to all the people that ever left him, to his parents or himself "You were never supposed to leave"... someone wasn't meant to leave him (parents, home, friends, girlfriends) or he wasn't meant to leave his home. But if he is actually saying that to himself then he has gone too far and craves so much for escapism it's not healthy. But he knows it isn't and that's why his "head's splitting at the seams".. everything that sewed his head together before and are actually the thread (his home and his parents)
are leaving him again and he doesn't understand why he needs his home so much. And that's why he says "I don't know if I can"... replying to the line "You were never supposed to leave".. basically saying because you can't handle reality maybe now, in fact, you can't leave your home.
"Here, beneath my lungs, I feel your thumbs press into my skin again" the final line, I think it refers to his home. He feels the hands of his home near his lungs helping him breath, pressing into his skin telling him he can return again.. but he knows that but he may think it's dangerous to return because he doesn't know if he'll leave it.. for he is an escapist. Escaping from reality and all the harshness it brings searching for that innocence and safety his childhood and his old childhood home brought him so long ago. This song is about an escapist.
Hahaha I'm sorry if I bored you.. you probably didn't even read it :).. haha But I love this song and when I'm passionate about it I become a bit of a loser.
This song, I believe, is about home with everything it has to offer and heal or even damage. In the first verse I think that's how he feels at that time. Maybe there was something in his childhood he missed out on. He's obviously missing out on sleep because of something so he has no escape from this world. No escape from reality so "I choke on sun"... Sun is an enlightening thing.. something that shows whats in the darkness. And the fact he uses the word 'choke' obviously means he cannot handle the fact that his bliss is being shattered. The least he could do would be to dream but he can't even sleep. "And the backs of my eyes hum with things I've never done" That line is so beautiful. The backs of his eyes, maybe being his mind but it could also just be his eyes, are humming with the things he's missed out on and not seen. And maybe his eyes are humming because he's so tired from not sleeping and having to live with the fact that he didn't do the things he wanted to.
It the second verse I think he's returned to his home. His home that he grew up in. He sees sheets on the clothesline and compares them to ghosts.. maybe ghosts of the past that maybe make the sheets very nostalgic. Or maybe they're representing the bad things that may have happened in this home. And the fact that they're swaying over dead grass doesn't make this line seem all that positive either. But then he goes on to say "was never much but we made the most" saying obviously that 'No our house wasn't much and lots of bad things happened here but we lived there and we made the most and I love it for it is my home and that's why I've returned'.. Basically no home is perfect but, as the old saying goes, 'There's no place like home'. And then comes those two eternally reassuring words 'Welcome home'.. all these ghosts of the past are welcoming him home because he needs the innocence of childhood and the sanctuary of home to heal him.
The third verse is quite hard to understand I think. These ships that he describes leaving his chest are maybe elements of the heart he is letting voyage away from him because they've let him down in the past. He's losing a part of him because of his heart breaks. "Some have names but some do not" is a hard line to figure out. Maybe some have a clear meaning like maybe one is called 'Being able to trust'... maybe that's leaving him. But the fact that most don't have a name makes it obvious that he doesn't know what parts of him are leaving but he knows that a lot of things are. and maybe in order for him to get them back he needs to go back to the people that truly know him (Parents) so they can help him find what he's lost and go back to his innocence, back when no real heart breaks occurred so he can start a whole new slate. "If you find one, please let me know what piece I've lost" I just explained that line I think.
The fourth verse is obviously about healing. The scars on his back are from those backstabbing people in his life and the hurts that he may have caused himself because of these backstabbers.. self punishing you might say. He says he doesn't need them anymore because he doesn't because like I've already said, he's starting a new slate. He's talking to his home or his parents in this verse. "You can throw them out or keep them in your mason jars" he's giving his home the option of keeping them just as long as they're still not on his back. Because he knows that the past is the past and to get rid of them fully would be quite unhealthy. He would remember mason jars being in the kitchen, remember them when his mother or father cooked so he thinks they are a safe and harmless place to keep his scars.. they won't get out. Then he says 'I've come home'.. three self reassuring words telling himself this time that he is home for he has been healed which is the reason why he came home in the first place.
Now the fifth verse is a bloody hard one to figure out. To me it's either he's left his home and everything that made him return home is coming back or he's at home but someone's left it and he can't handle it. I'm not sure but I think I'll go with the first one. Well he's left his home because it healed him like he wanted it to. But because he was away from the real world and the only nightmares were something he would think about (because what bad things would attack him at home?) now that he's in the real world again where he's choking on sun, on reality that he so obviously can't handle, he's begging reality to not come through that door. And maybe he's asking his home or his parents to come and save the day again. "please don't let them in". Now the next line he could either be talking to all the people that ever left him, to his parents or himself "You were never supposed to leave"... someone wasn't meant to leave him (parents, home, friends, girlfriends) or he wasn't meant to leave his home. But if he is actually saying that to himself then he has gone too far and craves so much for escapism it's not healthy. But he knows it isn't and that's why his "head's splitting at the seams".. everything that sewed his head together before and are actually the thread (his home and his parents) are leaving him again and he doesn't understand why he needs his home so much. And that's why he says "I don't know if I can"... replying to the line "You were never supposed to leave".. basically saying because you can't handle reality maybe now, in fact, you can't leave your home. "Here, beneath my lungs, I feel your thumbs press into my skin again" the final line, I think it refers to his home. He feels the hands of his home near his lungs helping him breath, pressing into his skin telling him he can return again.. but he knows that but he may think it's dangerous to return because he doesn't know if he'll leave it.. for he is an escapist. Escaping from reality and all the harshness it brings searching for that innocence and safety his childhood and his old childhood home brought him so long ago. This song is about an escapist. Hahaha I'm sorry if I bored you.. you probably didn't even read it :).. haha But I love this song and when I'm passionate about it I become a bit of a loser.