@ Metallicfire...I think this is a perfect description.
Also, the fact that a mistress is a "hidden lover", kind of like he wants this person so bad but she is "poisoning the world" for him, so he can only have her if he wants to be weakened and if he gives up everything else. And I think when he says "decide to let me in" He is saying that he wants her to decide to give up the games and love him for who he is...even though he probably knows in his heart it won't happen, sadly.
@ Metallicfire...I think this is a perfect description.
Also, the fact that a mistress is a "hidden lover", kind of like he wants this person so bad but she is "poisoning the world" for him, so he can only have her if he wants to be weakened and if he gives up everything else. And I think when he says "decide to let me in" He is saying that he wants her to decide to give up the games and love him for who he is...even though he probably knows in his heart it won't happen, sadly.