And I will find love at last not "I will follow at last"
The meaningless illusion of heterosexual love. The narrator might face violent reprisal for her sexual preference in which other people kept telling her that her unnatural appetite was due to her not having found her "perfect man" yet. Meanwhile, she was forced to "repent" while those people were kind enough to inform her of their generosity to find her "a man".
Just a personal interpretation, though.
And I will find love at last not "I will follow at last" The meaningless illusion of heterosexual love. The narrator might face violent reprisal for her sexual preference in which other people kept telling her that her unnatural appetite was due to her not having found her "perfect man" yet. Meanwhile, she was forced to "repent" while those people were kind enough to inform her of their generosity to find her "a man".
Just a personal interpretation, though.