i have no idea how this song relates to her, but i do know what this song means to me. growing up, gay, and christian, i was tormented with a conflict, a conflict between my dreams, my happiness, my life, and what i was supposed to do, my salvation. it consumed my life, and for most of my life i was extremely depressed. through my early 20's i felt as if everything i truly wanted out of life had or was passing me by. "this salvation i desire, keeps getting me down." for me that feeling is understated. often i contemplated suicide. i felt that this life was just a mere test and wasn't real. i felt that i had given it my all. i had nothing left in me. i was exhausted. i was so unhappy and couldn't live this life anymore. i just hoped that god would understand. i thought of everybody that would be left behind. they would continue to live and breathe. they would continue to battle their life challenges...like fools, but i was done.
perhaps this song is about the fight people face between life and salvation...some people give up, some people keep fighting. the person in this song gives up, gives in. to hear, she is done, she's fought hard, and looking at everybody still fighting so hard, they just seem foolish to her.
i love this song, because it reminds me of how close i was to truly losing my dreams. i was this person, but not anymore. i am now a fighter...i fight for my dreams.
Wow, I can totally see this now. With the biblical lyrics in Wandering Star and the songs about relationships.
Loss of faith, despair, this album is amazing.
Wow, I can totally see this now. With the biblical lyrics in Wandering Star and the songs about relationships.
Loss of faith, despair, this album is amazing.
@rEVEs You wrote this five years ago, but omfg you are just like me!! It would mean so much to me if you would somehow (however unlikely it is) get this reply and talk to me. I have had the same struggles and came to songmeanings, not expecting anyone to have interpreted the song in the same way I have because of its personal meaning for me. I have never felt anyone who has had a truly legitimate internal struggle between homosexuality etc and salvation. Yours has lasted so long that maybe you are like me - truly and completely...
@rEVEs You wrote this five years ago, but omfg you are just like me!! It would mean so much to me if you would somehow (however unlikely it is) get this reply and talk to me. I have had the same struggles and came to songmeanings, not expecting anyone to have interpreted the song in the same way I have because of its personal meaning for me. I have never felt anyone who has had a truly legitimate internal struggle between homosexuality etc and salvation. Yours has lasted so long that maybe you are like me - truly and completely conflicted with both sides equal. Oh wow... I wish I could hear more from you
i have no idea how this song relates to her, but i do know what this song means to me. growing up, gay, and christian, i was tormented with a conflict, a conflict between my dreams, my happiness, my life, and what i was supposed to do, my salvation. it consumed my life, and for most of my life i was extremely depressed. through my early 20's i felt as if everything i truly wanted out of life had or was passing me by. "this salvation i desire, keeps getting me down." for me that feeling is understated. often i contemplated suicide. i felt that this life was just a mere test and wasn't real. i felt that i had given it my all. i had nothing left in me. i was exhausted. i was so unhappy and couldn't live this life anymore. i just hoped that god would understand. i thought of everybody that would be left behind. they would continue to live and breathe. they would continue to battle their life challenges...like fools, but i was done.
perhaps this song is about the fight people face between life and salvation...some people give up, some people keep fighting. the person in this song gives up, gives in. to hear, she is done, she's fought hard, and looking at everybody still fighting so hard, they just seem foolish to her.
i love this song, because it reminds me of how close i was to truly losing my dreams. i was this person, but not anymore. i am now a fighter...i fight for my dreams.
Wow, I can totally see this now. With the biblical lyrics in Wandering Star and the songs about relationships. Loss of faith, despair, this album is amazing.
Wow, I can totally see this now. With the biblical lyrics in Wandering Star and the songs about relationships. Loss of faith, despair, this album is amazing.
@rEVEs You wrote this five years ago, but omfg you are just like me!! It would mean so much to me if you would somehow (however unlikely it is) get this reply and talk to me. I have had the same struggles and came to songmeanings, not expecting anyone to have interpreted the song in the same way I have because of its personal meaning for me. I have never felt anyone who has had a truly legitimate internal struggle between homosexuality etc and salvation. Yours has lasted so long that maybe you are like me - truly and completely...
@rEVEs You wrote this five years ago, but omfg you are just like me!! It would mean so much to me if you would somehow (however unlikely it is) get this reply and talk to me. I have had the same struggles and came to songmeanings, not expecting anyone to have interpreted the song in the same way I have because of its personal meaning for me. I have never felt anyone who has had a truly legitimate internal struggle between homosexuality etc and salvation. Yours has lasted so long that maybe you are like me - truly and completely conflicted with both sides equal. Oh wow... I wish I could hear more from you