Lyric discussion by seanbay0120 

Cover art for Only lyrics by Nine Inch Nails

First of all: I don't come here to see people shout about how much they love NIN! Please people, save that crap for fan sites and stop spamming songmeanings.net with your zombie retardation.

Secondly - I'm so sick of seeing people immediately jump on the first tired old symbol they can connect with a new song. If you were truly a fan of this artist you would give him enough credit to start interpreting the song from the basis that he is writing from some degree of new evolution in life/consciousness. I don't come here just to see how may votes the drug/gf/depression categories get.

Third - if you connect with a new song on a feeling level there must be a freshness to it (unless you are a zombie retard or cowardly suburbanite). Since the meaning of the music itself is immediately obvious on a feeling level, what we real people come here for is help with understanding the words, especially understanding how they fit with and connect to the feeling of the music.

Rather than try to put the song's meaning in a nutshell, I will just add a few definite points I see. I find that the more good points I read before analyzing a song the better the points I have to add will be. To give a truly complete analysis of a song you must genuinely feel you are experiencing what the artist experienced in making the song. For many reasons that probably rarely if ever actually happens.

The line I am the least sure of is "I just made you up to hurt myself" This seems like an oxymoron if read in the most normal, literal sense. Since this isn't an especially 'dark' feeling song, I think we can rule out a 'masochistic' interpretation of this line. Since it isn't masochistic, it means he wasn't planning on hurting himself. He is being sarcastic I think. Somehow he was tricked or made the mistake of buying into something or someone that turned out to be an illusion.

With this established I'll take the rest of the lyrics in order. ---I'm becoming less defined as days go by ---Fading away, well you might say I'm losing focus ---Kind of drifting to the abstract ---In terms of how I see myself To me this is one event, as opposed to later parts in the song. "abstract" and "see myself" are the core phrases of this block. His sense of 'what he is' - not WHO but WHAT - is losing concrete value. What is it exactly that makes the various decisions throughout the day, when and what to eat, who to meet, where to go, which thoughts seem accurate, etc. What EXACTLY decides these things? He doesn't know, his idea of what he is as opposed to the outside world is becoming blurry, ie "losing focus".

---Sometimes I think I can see right through myself(x3) ---Less concerned about fitting into the world ---Your world that is --Cause it doesn't really matter any more

He can "see right through himself" perhaps because his idea of himself is foggy. The things that affect him and what he actually is are blurring together. Therefore when "he" does something, he can see his actions before they even happen, like forecasting the weather. Even though in theory if he is choosing to do something he doesn't actually know it's going to happen until he has made his decision.

Another angle on this group of lines is that his existence doesn't seem to have much substance. It's not totally nihilistic or solipsistic, he DOES exist, but he's just not very solid anymore.

Now "the world" "your world" is the cultural/scientific map/understanding that we inherit and update from day to day to navigate/manipulate the waking world (math formulas, traffic laws, history, techniques and ideals/values and so on) Things have come to the point where he doesn't really know if he is making the right choices. Or what's worse, if the things he does even have the effect he thinks they do. Or even worse, if he is actually doing what he's trying to do. The effort he exerts trying to keep up with all the responsibilities/potentials we supposedly have in life might actually be a total waste ( back to "I just made you up to hurt myself").

---Yes I'm alone, then again I always was ---As far back as I can tell ---I think maybe it's because you were never really real to begin with ---I just made you up to hurt myself(x5) ---And it worked...yes it did

I believe this song is "almost" solipsism, but technically it's not. Being alone does not mean that no one else exists anywhere in the universe, but it means, as far as the musical tone of this song goes: All that he "knows" or feels about the existence of other spirits/consciousnesses etc actually just seems like rumors to him now that he really looks at it up close. He had always assumed that life must be at least a small fraction of what it seems, now he's beginning to realize that for all practical purposes: ---There is no fucking you! There is only me

"I may as well be dreaming" seems to me to be the feeling of this song. The particular main idea of this song is not concerned with discerning dreaming world from waking world, but the sense of being "Only" has overwhelmed everything and anything to the contrary.

---Well the tiniest little dot caught my eye ---And it turned out to be a scab ---And I had this funny feeling ---Like I just knew it's something bad ---I just couldn't leave it alone ---I kept picking at the scab ---It was a doorway trying to seal itself shut

For most dreams that I remember, I'm not paying attention to how strange the experiences are while they are happening. Or if they are nightmares, even if I am terrified in the dream I'm no where near as terrified as I would be if the thing were to be really happening to me in the waking world. Because in the waking world losing my arm/eye etc would be a major tragedy but in a dream I can have a brand new body in the very next dream.

In dreams while they are happening, no matter how many 'characters' are there, I never stop to realize that I am actually alone, making all these people up. I feel like I'm "really" with someone.

So here he is, in this illusion (almost like a dream, which is why i mentioned dreams) This illusion is a solution to being alone. YOUR world, the cultural world, the conclusions and teachings that other people exist and have these and those sorts of desires and experiences in relation to you The illusion is that you forget that when you feel you are "with" people what you are really "with" is your ideas of them, what you think they are feeling inside. The reality is you actually have no idea what they are feeling!

THERE IS NO FUCKING YOU, THERE IS ONLY ME!

Normally scabs are good, but he is seeing a scab and saying deep down inside he feels or knows its wrong He could live blissfully ignorant if he would just choose to but that kind of existence is just so disgusting and pathetic he can't bring himself to do it

The scab turned out to be a doorway, not a scab on his own being The scab is on "your world' the mental simulation we use to navigate the waking world the Matrix or the Pretty Hate Machine, all the same thing actually The scan is from a damaged part of the machine world he broke though because he felt deep inside something was wrong with the world now he finds that he never really had a direct experience of anything but himself

But in his own mind he can see that there IS an outside world but only according to the understanding he has of his own life Living and acting as though other people exist works to keep you alive etc but in the end you never experience anything other than yourself

This is what I think this song is about. I don't necessarily think Trent Reznor ALWAYS feels this way but he might

I certainly feel this way most of the time that I am awake and sober

---Now I am somewhere I am not supposed to be ---And I can see things I know I really shouldn't see ---And now I know why, ya now I know why ---Things aren't as pretty, on the inside

Now he is 'under the hood' of the machine. Society teaches us all these false notions about how we work Pleasant fictions we can entertain ourselves with while we pretend to have meaningful interactions So that the machine can continue to function using human labor Now he is having a horrible experience living inside a place that wasn't designed for him Its like waking up into the real world in the Matrix a desolate post-apocalyptic landscape where humans never roam only machines

But for this song more specifically why are things "not as pretty on the inside" I'm not 100% sure on this what he means Maybe someone else can help me out until later

i respect your love for music, and i hope you respect what i am about to say you nitpik to much on the fine points of the song. music is meant to be felt, enjoyed, supposed to set you free and let you experience emotions. some of the things you say are true and great insights, but you drag on to long and ruin the song when you start relating it to the matrix. When trent wrote this song, i dont think even he put as much thought into it as you did. If you want to think this far into things, look...

Well johnnyblueye, I've been extremely busy and haven't checked the site until today. Here's my respone to your reply on my original comment: Music is not 'meant' to be any particular way. It is sound used to create an ongoing experience. A more specific definiton than that is 'nitpicking' I think. I don't see writing from the heart or the mind as things which are mutually exlusive. The mind is an inner world of experience in which music can be played just like it is played in a real room. People use their minds to analyze, study, and create plans of action to achieve...

Seanbay - absofuckinglutley! Great write up and analysis. Johnnyblueeye is just another PRETENTIOUS teen who thinks he has a clue.