I do agree that it is about a pattern of people leaving her that started from her nuclear family, but hey I don't think her father ever left the family. I think it is more about how she interprets the external reality of people leaving her and how her fears of having people abandoning her, as well as some annoying sick traits of her personality eventually cause people to leave. It is mostly men leaving her but she mentions female friends too: "Sweet girl..."...
"Until I get what I'm to get" is about her constant illusions, projections and expectations on those people and their role in her life, which she knows are impossible to be played up to, so she knows that she will never get what she is to get and once again gets sarcastic about herself. "Until I out this false story" means her lies "to herself and thereby to everyone else", her constantly justyfying her sick behavior.
I do agree that it is about a pattern of people leaving her that started from her nuclear family, but hey I don't think her father ever left the family. I think it is more about how she interprets the external reality of people leaving her and how her fears of having people abandoning her, as well as some annoying sick traits of her personality eventually cause people to leave. It is mostly men leaving her but she mentions female friends too: "Sweet girl..."...
"Until I get what I'm to get" is about her constant illusions, projections and expectations on those people and their role in her life, which she knows are impossible to be played up to, so she knows that she will never get what she is to get and once again gets sarcastic about herself. "Until I out this false story" means her lies "to herself and thereby to everyone else", her constantly justyfying her sick behavior.