I actually agree with you, it seems as though he is having a hidden relationship with someone who doesnt want anyone to know about it.
He feels like it's all lies and it hurts but it would hurt even more if that person would leave.
It is possible that his lover is another man and that this other guy wants to keep it a secret, but the singer doesn't want to keep wearing this disguise.
I actually agree with you, it seems as though he is having a hidden relationship with someone who doesnt want anyone to know about it. He feels like it's all lies and it hurts but it would hurt even more if that person would leave. It is possible that his lover is another man and that this other guy wants to keep it a secret, but the singer doesn't want to keep wearing this disguise.