This Is Not An Exit

Tonight will be the night that we begin to ease the plugs out of the dam.

• The dam is resistance to past actions, specifically the shameful ones. To ease the plugs out is to stop pretending like the past has no consequence.

And we will stand knee deep in the flow, the undertow will grab our heels and won't let go.

• The reality of the past takes hold

And while we hold, our legs quivering, the water rises now to our teeth when we just let go

• The past overwhelms and submission becomes a must.

and sail belly up to the clouds, the rocks scraping our backs.

• So let the past carry forward despite the fact that it hurts.

To breath in the air will be the only thing that we have

• Breathing is the constant of life in this song

and all the wasted nights and empty moments in our lives

• nights spent playing video games, watching porn, getting high, bored and lonely, ect...

flushed away as we sway with the rhythm of the waves bobbing us up. Crests fall to troughs we feel our gills open up.

• learn to live with the past, find meaning in it, and the emptiness disappears.

And sail belly up to the clouds, the rocks scraping our backs. To breath in the air will be the only thing that we have

• if you can't count on the fact that you are breathing you can't count on anything

and if the hook sets in the bottom of our lungs,

• if something disrupts you're breath...

we'll rip it out and lick the blood off with our tongues.

• own it!

The despair can ravage you if you turn your head around to look down the path that's led you here, cause what can you change?

• don't worry about the past because it can't be changed.

You're a vessel now floating down the waterways.

• Instead, let the past carry you forward.

You can take your rudder and aim your ship, just don't bother with the things left in your wake.

• Make better choices in the hear and now rather than letting the details of the past consume you.

Just sail belly up to the clouds, the rocks scraping your back.

• Submit, let go, endure.

To breathe in the air will be the only thing that you have

• no kidding, your going to die sooner or later

and your love will be warm nights with pockets of moonlight spotlighting you as you drift, the actor in this play.

• until then, you've got to find a way to enjoy your life.

And you walk across the stage, take a bow, hear the applause, and as the curtain falls, just know you did it all the best that you knew how and you can hear them cheering now.

• Despite how messed up you were, you did the best you could so move on and let the past go. Your friends, family, and everyone else want the best for you

So let a smile out and show your teeth cause you know you lived it well.

• fin