its a obvious statement that this song is about abuse but i feel it give you the sense of bing in her house as a child. its really powerful to see things through the eyes of a child and knowing that you have to lie about the pain you are feeing to the world outside of your house. i LOVE when she says "loving you is nothing new its self mutilation but i crave the pain i am so ashamed but i love stimulation" the first part of that lyric is so powerful because as a child and if your parent is abusive the world tells you you must love your abuser but you know that because you love them its like mutilating yourself. then the second part of its a drug/sex reference that you are willing to hurt yourself or make yourself as a woman hurt from sex to feel a rush.then the parts where she is making up all the lies of why she has all the marks of abuse is really strong because most abuse victims will do that. then feeling that its your fault that you are being abused when you obviously did nothing wrong is a strong thing. then she threatens her abuser which is just such a liberating experience because it gives you the satisfaction of revenge. and i wish the opening was in this song and not invisible because its touch to hear it its so sweet how otep tells her mother that despite everything that has happened she still loves her and promises her that her father will never touch her or her family again
its a obvious statement that this song is about abuse but i feel it give you the sense of bing in her house as a child. its really powerful to see things through the eyes of a child and knowing that you have to lie about the pain you are feeing to the world outside of your house. i LOVE when she says "loving you is nothing new its self mutilation but i crave the pain i am so ashamed but i love stimulation" the first part of that lyric is so powerful because as a child and if your parent is abusive the world tells you you must love your abuser but you know that because you love them its like mutilating yourself. then the second part of its a drug/sex reference that you are willing to hurt yourself or make yourself as a woman hurt from sex to feel a rush.then the parts where she is making up all the lies of why she has all the marks of abuse is really strong because most abuse victims will do that. then feeling that its your fault that you are being abused when you obviously did nothing wrong is a strong thing. then she threatens her abuser which is just such a liberating experience because it gives you the satisfaction of revenge. and i wish the opening was in this song and not invisible because its touch to hear it its so sweet how otep tells her mother that despite everything that has happened she still loves her and promises her that her father will never touch her or her family again