I think what opaldrake said is most close to correct. Someone said later that Patton wrote this about his fears of jail; which by analysis of this song probably have to do with never being able to make love to a woman again. I don't see anything about rape throughout all of it.
"They will sum it all up in a sentence
a verdict made by those who know
I'm willing to make a commitment
I'm willing to make love to concrete"
I think there should be a colon at the end of the second line, because the first two lines seem to be about his prosecutors and the making love to concrete part seems to be about his interpretation of the words of "those who know." Basically, the way he sees his commitment is that he will have nothing to make love to but concrete.
"Smiles
Bruises
Smiles
Bruises
Bars in the womb"
This is expressing Patton's self-assuredness waxing and waning, or him having on-and-off trouble with authority as the days count down until he ends up in jail; "bars in the womb." So his fear is probably, most realistically, never being able to have intercourse with a woman again.
The next line seems clearly to me about masturbating, in a jail cell. "I hide my dirty minutes under the dirty mattress and they are making me itch. My time is spilt milk."
"My skin is a layer of soot
I'm spending my days scrubbing"
He's trying to wash away the shame of masturbating, But no matter how hard he washes, he still feels dirty (as someone else said)
"I'm trying so hard to act like nothing happened (no one left to blame)
I'm trying so hard to find that fresh clean smell (no one left to blame)
I think this is where he begins to mix up his uncleanliness with the intensity of his actual crime. "I'm trying so hard to act like nothing happened" and "no one left to blame" seem to hint at this.
"Cruel words sleep above me
mounting and teasing"
OK, this line is the only one which for me slightly relates to rape. They could be his own confused conscience teasing himself or there could actually be someone sleeping above him, and mounting and teasing could refer to rape. Maybe it's the superficial side of his fear. (or maybe he really was raped, if he even went to jail, who knows)
"I am what I've done
I'm sorry...sorry..."
He feels as though he's being punished for or by, not being able to have a woman, his only pleasure is masturbation etc. In this way he feels like he's learned his lesson "I'm sorry, sorry.. etc
cue the organ music, he's come to an epiphany, he's come to terms with himself, he's sick of being this; ironically it probably has nothing to do with his actual crime in reality. (I believe the organ music represents his inner-apocalypse, the apogee of his inner fear; it's hell to him).
I think what opaldrake said is most close to correct. Someone said later that Patton wrote this about his fears of jail; which by analysis of this song probably have to do with never being able to make love to a woman again. I don't see anything about rape throughout all of it. "They will sum it all up in a sentence a verdict made by those who know I'm willing to make a commitment I'm willing to make love to concrete" I think there should be a colon at the end of the second line, because the first two lines seem to be about his prosecutors and the making love to concrete part seems to be about his interpretation of the words of "those who know." Basically, the way he sees his commitment is that he will have nothing to make love to but concrete. "Smiles Bruises Smiles Bruises Bars in the womb" This is expressing Patton's self-assuredness waxing and waning, or him having on-and-off trouble with authority as the days count down until he ends up in jail; "bars in the womb." So his fear is probably, most realistically, never being able to have intercourse with a woman again. The next line seems clearly to me about masturbating, in a jail cell. "I hide my dirty minutes under the dirty mattress and they are making me itch. My time is spilt milk." "My skin is a layer of soot I'm spending my days scrubbing" He's trying to wash away the shame of masturbating, But no matter how hard he washes, he still feels dirty (as someone else said) "I'm trying so hard to act like nothing happened (no one left to blame) I'm trying so hard to find that fresh clean smell (no one left to blame) I think this is where he begins to mix up his uncleanliness with the intensity of his actual crime. "I'm trying so hard to act like nothing happened" and "no one left to blame" seem to hint at this.
"Cruel words sleep above me mounting and teasing" OK, this line is the only one which for me slightly relates to rape. They could be his own confused conscience teasing himself or there could actually be someone sleeping above him, and mounting and teasing could refer to rape. Maybe it's the superficial side of his fear. (or maybe he really was raped, if he even went to jail, who knows)
"I am what I've done I'm sorry...sorry..."
He feels as though he's being punished for or by, not being able to have a woman, his only pleasure is masturbation etc. In this way he feels like he's learned his lesson "I'm sorry, sorry.. etc cue the organ music, he's come to an epiphany, he's come to terms with himself, he's sick of being this; ironically it probably has nothing to do with his actual crime in reality. (I believe the organ music represents his inner-apocalypse, the apogee of his inner fear; it's hell to him).