I hate to burst everyone's bubble... but Amanda is quite un-suicidal...
"I tried to fall in it again" "it" is love. And her friends bet on whether it would work out and then faked sympathy when it didn't.
The lines "I want your chest pressed to my chest / my nervous systems interfere" are pretty telling. This song is about wanting someone, but not being able to work up the courage to do it. It's a very vulnerable place. Rather than a fear of talking to them though, I think it's a fear of letting someone in. She tries to focus on everything else she has, and how much time she has left, but she knows it's dwindling and she wants something more.
There may be a specific person in mind, she seems to be asking him/her to wait another year with her before she commits, etc. It's heartbreaking because it seems to be a repeating cycle with her in the song.
On another note, I think the smoking imagery is definitely a double meaning, she keeps that running through the lyrics. But the main focus of it I think is relationships.
On another note, I think the smoking imagery is definitely a double meaning, she keeps that running through the lyrics. But the main focus of it I think is relationships.
I hate to burst everyone's bubble... but Amanda is quite un-suicidal...
"I tried to fall in it again" "it" is love. And her friends bet on whether it would work out and then faked sympathy when it didn't.
The lines "I want your chest pressed to my chest / my nervous systems interfere" are pretty telling. This song is about wanting someone, but not being able to work up the courage to do it. It's a very vulnerable place. Rather than a fear of talking to them though, I think it's a fear of letting someone in. She tries to focus on everything else she has, and how much time she has left, but she knows it's dwindling and she wants something more.
There may be a specific person in mind, she seems to be asking him/her to wait another year with her before she commits, etc. It's heartbreaking because it seems to be a repeating cycle with her in the song.
On another note, I think the smoking imagery is definitely a double meaning, she keeps that running through the lyrics. But the main focus of it I think is relationships.
On another note, I think the smoking imagery is definitely a double meaning, she keeps that running through the lyrics. But the main focus of it I think is relationships.